Can you define it? I just can't.....

You think I am a tough person?
You are wrong!
We are wrong!
Cuz I used to be one, one of yours,
Insisting that me, myself is
As harsh as one might imagine
I could endure any hardship
anything that came across
the jar of my life timeline
that's the only guideline I lived with
The only principle I survived
I was always filled with confidence
to get something done as if the Creator

Yet,
I was wrong...
By having this mild state of
'talk-to-my-hand'
I've been hearing it long
Since i first got here
Perhaps, that's the 'breeze'
which any of penangites will own
No? Just confess! my friends...

Untill few days ago
I realized that I was nothing
Nothing than others
but a guy who is in pink of health
standing with 173++
laughing with 3 inches
nothing special then...

I am just weak
as if a new-born bird
Maximizin its jaw to food
Fed by its poor mother
I am nothing but just that....
I need you
Strength, i name it!


I am in collision currently
How about you, my dear?
Are you startin to wobble
Being not steadily well as before
I was hoping that I was the cause

I know we ain't gonna work it out
We could have similar line of strands
We both have visions to realize
We have different paths to plode
I seriously think we should stop

You and me together
Stop from where we started
Let's get back to the days before
When we were still
'hello-byebye' friend
to each other
Knowing you here
for almost 2 years
Though it has already happened
We got to fix it
Before it's getting worser

Lastly, God blessss you
Be happy always
Don't worry


Signin off in hoping for miracle......

MSMBB Quiz....

Our team Nilai University College
visited north wing of UCSI, Cheras
for 3 days & 2 night...



' According to Patricia '
Our team wasn't the last one!
Round of applause for us......



& guess what
' According to Ms. Patricia '
We should go for celebration!

Panic or tense? Not at all...relax....

Whoa! We are tryin our best to get into semi-round

All the participants and organizing commitee

Looked smart! Goin for a presentation?

Nop! sorry...Not qualified to semi-round....

The closing ceremony....

It's over....

Finally it's over...the quiz contest
It had ended up with a magnificent closin ceremony
I would say that, by not forgetin
Which I think all of participants do

One of the 'amazing' MC- MUTHU
With 'her' ( sorry for a known mistake here)
all sort of feminine movements, gestures

most importantly, the way 'she'
(again, a consciously made mistake here)
spoke to us, it was really ' impressive'!!
That made us to etch them on minds
Till the day we are buried to ground

Yet, indeed, 'she' is a talented mc
Which couldn't we deny it
So, my question here is that
Is a skillful speaker neccesarily to be a feminine one?
If I am tryin to point to a speaker who is a guy

No, not at all, from my perspective
I had gone through milions and millions of talks
(whoa....seems like I am a phD holder or sth
Not actually, just tryin to be exaggerative for seconds
Allow me please)

But, it is a fact that I ever met a guy
Who is an excellent speaker from a talk
He is deep and clear with his pronounciation
During his talk, and believe me
You will just like his voice
He is capable of welly managin his own way of emphasis
The talk was an eye-opener after all
I would never forget that and it was about sexuality

Alrite, talking bout the quiz
It was an eye-openin experience
With the presentation and all
And I do feel there is a gap between us somewhat
No choice but to admit it
And i will do whatever I can to fill the gap, hopefully

As I always do, I believe in myself
Safe and secure to say that
I haven't yet reached the exaggerative level
or else, it will be a 'severe' egotism

But it is very much true
i do believe in myself for everythin i've done
And I'll never look back
once I've chosen the pathway
As I will try my best to adapt,
Gain or to attain something from that

Why am i sayin this?
Promotin? me? myself? to who actually?
Unknown, to ghosts, perhaps
It's crap anyways

And just wanna say that
For the 3-day long quiz
Just take it as a helpful experience
To my dear teamates
I had got a lot fun time along the journey
So as you all I believe...

There is nothing much to lose remember guys!
But I was, seriously thinkin of how would it be
If we managed to get into semi-round
Nothing else but to torture my mind
By the way....

We would be exposed to the briefin firstly
And we got to complete the presentation
within 4 hours, it was goin to be tough I know
But i just believe that
We could, and we would come out with somethin
That must be sure I know

Perhaps, ours wont be as great as others
But at least, we tried and we had something to be shared
Those were the experience!
And the one and only thing we lost!

So,

Jessy - good luck for your comin inteviews,
I know they will come to you
And yeah, go after your chinese match!

Pat & V - plain sailing for everythin in FELDA
and keep in touch!
Hopefully we'll be goin Sunderland
together

See ya!!!!

What the hell is love? Relationship?

It's 2 months to go to reach 20
But i have never thought I am a matured guy
In some particular aspects
Especially this one, relationship!
I bet it's a romantic stuff.....

As I was told by my friend
' Guys can never be friend of ladies '
He has got his point
Which is somehow happening to me
That makes me to ultimately understand it!

This is even precisely proven true when
' Singles of different gender meet together '
Like me and another....
Cuz they or we tend to get bonded to each other
Without any warning, without any reason
Is it true? Should I use we ?
Or just, it is sole?
' It works one way and one direction '

For my case, I think i am still alrite
That stuff is still under control and welly managed
Which makes me to survive until today

But not in the future, i dare not to promise that!
Relax!! It's just a joke
I won't be a monster like Mr. Sylar of that kind

I will need some feedbacks here if possible
Just wanna make sure I ain't the only one here
who is abnormal - should I say that?
By having this kind of thoughts
You tell me guys!

Ohh yeah!
I was thinking about friend of mine
Tellin me about her own way of seekin partner
Yesterday, along the journey to the Cheras

I was lookin out to the windows
Unable to capture everthing passed through me
outside of me of cuz
And i don't think i paid my whole attention
To what was happenin in the car
Especially the goin-on conversation
Just partially got to digest them
shameful to tell that

But as far as I can recall
I did reply to her
Which i can't remember what was it now

Like i said
I was just partially gettin connected to her
Forgive me, i know you will
If my dear friend, you, happens to pass by here

She was like so sure about her desire
To get a chinese as her boyfriend
Based on what she was sayin
Is it? Hopefully I am sending the correct message
For what she was tryin to tell that day

I am not doubtin her here
I understand the circumstances
And yes, I support her
Why not? Since Chinese are much better here
And believe it or not
An excellent example is just finished writin this line

There is already a prominent and irritated one
Here in my college
The Ms. Seremban who is a Chinese with
Her ~Malay or Indian~ unidentified boyfriend
Which have more than enough to light up
The fires of all guys in this college
Since in my opinion, that girl is like
One of the tops in this college
You know what I am sayin, I bet
Frustrated right?

Back to it, to put it in right
I would say that
' Difference in races absolutely not a obstacle '
For relationship stuff, and everything's destinied
' It's YES when only God said YES '

Good luck and all the best
To my friends who gonna find his or her one soon
Who gonna stay forever with his or her one now

Moving forward....

Just finished my presentation for COM
It's an English class actually
We were the fourth group to present
Thanks to my pal, tek teng
I had myself welly dressed up today
I think....that made to rise up my confidence


I have been tryin to look forward
Endeavour to grab a greater view
A further one recently
Like where to go what to study & work
And so on...
Yeah, i admit it, i kinda in vex actually
But I somehow couldn't find the solution
Or I am lost in making decision
And ultimately, ended up by sweet dream
Perhaps, there are so many stones or rocks
that make their ways to block my path
From moving on.....Telling me that
I should get rid of them first!


Okay! Back to my actual life here and now
They are many more to go from now on
Math quiz will be held on tomorrow
A biotech quiz contest on Friday
If we do make it, we shall proceed
For the following stages, if that so happens
A malaysian study mid term on next tuesday
so on and so forth
Cant imagine that!


So what to say is....
Bear and fulfil it!
Good luck!

In Dilemma

Why must we make choices for our lives?
Just hate that!!
I've been here for almost two years
and guess what, It's coming to end soon!
And that's time I gonna make choices
It's terrible!!!!


After discussion, I've got consensus
To go out there for my undergraduate degree
Really appreciate it and thanks to my parents


There are few options in my mind now
But they are more than enough to make me suffered!
It's either UK or Australia
Let's analyze and guys feel free to drop your words here!



Australia
* generally 2 years
* can apply for PR after my study
* nice environment
* higher-ranked (for u which I am goin)
* cheaper living expenses
* currency - 2.3
* I can work permanently there after gettin PR
* very close to Malaysia ( 7 hours of flight)
* looks more tranquil and peaceful



UK( Sunderland)
* 1 year only
* can work for 2 years after that
* can compensate the money spent within 1 year
* demand for biotechnology is higher
* GBP - 5.2( used to be 7.9)
* get more money ( if i am to be more economical)
* higher living expenses
* doesn't look so calm
* further



Guys! What You Gonna Say ???
Put Me In Right Please !!!

My Valentine

A competition in the morning

Again, it was a pointless battle

Uhhh...forget about it!!!!

Like we always do, we stroke k box again!

We hung out in the afternoon
We? Yeah, we...

Group of my college's pals

It was just that

Nothing much

At least i wasn't dull and tedious

Prisoning in my room yesterday

It made even terrible

So note it!

French Soda with mixed favours!

Hopefully a better, a meaningful one

Will be going on next year!

You are mine!

Get my new webcam!

And it's 39 only!

It's not so good, but that's more than enough for me!!

The very first picture i took

Re-gainin knowledge...

It gonna be a quiz contest next week
Organized by? It's not important
Cuz i never think I got to remember that
It's gonna be held in Cheras, UCSI anyways

We, our college has sent a team for that
I am one of them
A shame for the team or the college
Haa.. both, I guess

I have been using these few days
To revise whatever I had learn here
From the given notes
Thanks God i still have them with me

Initially, when I first got the details
I was surprised as the contest
Is for degree level students,
Not for us, diploma students

There's an existence of distance or gap in between
Hence I was like totally brushing it aside
Never take it as one of my concern
That explains the reason
I started my revision so late

Until it was 2 days ago,
Back from the holiday
I flipped through some pages of the notes
Of my previously taken subjects

Something flashed through my mind
For that very moment
Telling me that we are actually not
So naive to work a way out

I see a chance there if all of us
could work a bit harder, put a bit effort
There is a path of light waiting there
Just at the side of the corner before the narrow space
Awaiting us to squeeze or twist ourselves
If we are ready to endeavour

So guys! Let's begin it!
Do a good job for our university before leavin it!

'Blank' like how I am now

There gonna be tests of few subjects soon
They should be parts of my concern, shouldn't they?

But why?Seems that I don't feel anything of them
They are minor I know

But it doesn't mean we are tested for nothing
There are marks allocated

Each of them
Meaning it gonna contribute to my final

Yet, sadly to tell that So far I have no idea about the test

Entirely blank
That's it!

Wish me luck for the coming tests....
I know somebody gonna save me for that

There is always somebody
Next to me.....

I had forgotten how to spell 'L.O.V', is this correct?

I had thrown it thousands miles behind
As far as I can remember
My nerves no longer hold it, feel it
No more like before?
Or, never I have it?
Shame on me, such a numb person I am!

Few things that I realize is that
I will still carve your name
Onto my notes, textbooks or even
Exam papers once
It's more than once sometime
And the funnier thing is
The process is automatic, unconcious
Again, shame on me
See what I've done!!

Is that I still have you in my mind
Should I congratulate you that
You had successfully stolen my time before
To etch yourself in my memory
To linger your shadow silhouetted
To stay your voice echoed

Maybe you are the longest
I feet in among those
No problem i think
I mean who cares
To live with a 'past' like that
Though it's neither sweet nor dim
That's it!
It does light up my curiosity frequently
How can it be?
Supposingly, it has already been eliminated
Cuz i am clear, very clear that
I am treating her as friend, plain one now
And I blacklisted her before
How can it be?
It's just unbelievable!

Anyways, not a big deal!
'Life is to move on'

I feel the 'Pascal'

Pascal?
Yeah, don't doubt it,
It's SI unit of pressure
That what I meant
pressure


It's supposed to be a vex-free,
calm and simple semester
Sadly, it doesn't seem like though
Thing is not always pleasant
As one thinks or expects
Dust always reappears on the shiny
ground after cleaning within seconds

- presentations
- report
- tests
- assignments
- survey
- quiz contest
- research
- revision

It's it---- pReSSurE


Don't worry about me
It's just my way
to release my temporary 'Pascal'
By blogging
Whether it works or not,
different story
At least i had tried
I know I gonna be alright very soon
As PRESSURE is really not a good friend of mine
I won't make it as my concern
Not at all


Like I said
' Thing is not always pleasant
As one thinks or expects '

' Things are not unpleasant
All the time as well '
vice versa


There is always a wonderful, bird-beepin day
After a thurderstorm
That's a truth, a fact
So, Be optimistic

S.I.C.K....Get the hell away from me!

Like it is...I am sick here
Not really serious, but kinda disruptive
While heartpinnin to the lessons
Doin sport, anything...
It's an obstacle, I would say that
Blocking me to move on
Anyways, I know it's not such a big deal
I will recover sooner and later
Of cuz, who don't, we are not talkin about AIDS
and other diseases which are not curable, okay?
Huh, obviously I am okay, alive here
Or else I won't be myself here
Talking shits and rubbishes


By the way, it's time!
It's time to be sticking to discipline
Three more presentations to go
And the piles are just steps away
Need to boost me up
Myself or You
It's you
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GOd,
Please save your son here
May everything ahead will be plain salling