Single Singlie - belief on my hand

I, hereby, to the creatures under the Sun
declare to be a totally single pure man!
Forget about stuff before
we used to flirt or even, itemize each other
To my adorable A to Z.. we are friends forever-ever!

I should be a single for a-decade long time
as I shouldn't be awarded, not yet for now!
This isn't a curse! Be clear about it!
Just, I think I'm not ready yet
But if so happen I gonna meet one,
forget about whatever I mention above

Wonder why I have such thought
To be alone, lonely loner?
[ All right reserved ; ICE AGES 3]
Sorry, I can't tell cause frankly,
me, myself is in trouble finding the truth also
But I think it's profoundly to do with my characteristics
It has to be! So assume it's right...
The assumption would be.......

Do I think in different way?
Yes I do...complicated, weird, troublesome, name it!

Do I have an exceptionally high requirement?
Yes I do...good-lookin, slim, fair, intelligient, say it!

Do I, myself in trouble?
Yes I do...all the way, all the time!



Due to lethagy and sleepiness
It's To be continued.......

The power of positive thinking

It has been seven weeks since the last time I left, things around still seem not to be so good, it would torture one to death somehow. I could timely sense the grief, stress, sorrow and any other negativities. I know all of these would unavoidably go for months or even years which nobody can change it, if it continues the way it does now, i am sure worser picture will emerge in the coming days I swear to God and eventually everything and everyone will get the passive and resistant impacts. I think for now, I know why the director of the film ' The Day When The Earth Stood Still' had the idea to have his film published. I used to think it was a moronic movie ever, but now, it kinda makes sense, human beings are too weak from all perspectives, mainly twisted and fooled by their emotions. There is nothing that I could think of for a 20-year-old 'boy' (if you prefer to call me that, frankly I am not really feeling cozy for that) to do confronting the spiky and thorny currents, this is unusual and totally not ordinary as far as I could tell. I know I am facing a severe imbalance for my mental thoughts which is a fact, but take note of that, a patient especially a psychopath usually doesn't compare himself with others who are normal as they think they are, so I dare to assure you that I am a 100% normal guy living in pink and for the case of my mental problems, i think I've got a self-producing remedy to take care of it. I was once having a negative thought to give up the family i owned, it's just too hectic to ones couldn't imagine to play a role of it, now it flows through my nerves again, so should I? I am just helpless and tiny to have every problem solved which is not gonna happen, how jealous am I to those who have simple and easy family. Please pals, do me a favour I do not expect any feedbacks for this post,i just deliver what i think it's necessary to make myself better. Like I always do, I am okay, to all my adorable buddies, I've learned to take better care of myself and to solve the problem the way it supposed to be. I'll only do whatever I think it's right, but to be honest, i'm indeed in despair with family, right now, I'll only take a responsibility selectively other than those supposingly. You know better than what I mean! I can't do much thing except for finishin my studies as you wished. Do stay by my side and please, give your best shot to everyone whom you left without warning. Do whatever you can to dwindle her pressure and most importantly, her misses to you to make her life better. Rest in peace after then....God bless

What a World!!

Jz realized that it has been long
since last time I pencilled here
It was decades ago....isn't it?
See I deserve the forgiveness from anybody
At least still, after so long
I am trying my best
to make myself being exaggerative
goaled to make my blog fascinating & exhilarating
Sorry then if it doesnt sound
since I am being myself
I've reached
stamping on the base
of my sense of humour
shameful to declare that


Alright, there are actually few things
that had impressed me both the ways lately
They did it to draw my attention deeply
Cause normally, things I notice around
will just flow thorugh my nerves for seconds
and get vanished right the way
which is also in second-counted
However, they were unusual, so different
that had profoundly grabbed my glances


It was last week, I saw a pedestrian
A 30 plus plus Indonesian I guess
on my way to go for dinner
I was alone, dizzy half-way and partially druggy
as I just emptied a bottle of coughing syrup
I remember both sides of us were not vivid
to differentiate who was the passer-by
because, me too, did stamp on the walkway aside
for moment, just to give them a shot
And, I was the stunning one, that made
me to wipe my existence away
on this twentieth century
Again now, am I?
It was just scarely to be believed
Almost went against the normality
For this species on earth
that it supposed to be


It was the mum herself with her son
Again I suppose and a mini rectangular,
blanket-like 'sack' on her front
They were tornly dressed up
the spiky covers would make anyone
suffered and moaned in pain
She was blindly directing a cart, spilled with dumps
mostly papermade stuff as hard as I could notice
to wherever she could collect her thingumajig
The family, inherited from the past,
was with dark skin, both of them
that made me to become unclear
about the portion of splattered dirts
and splashing ashes on their faces and cover-ups
the picture was indeed difficult to be washed away
not just for me who has no difference in
my emotional status with others


After few miles away from my sight
I was about to be far-off the widow
All of the sudden it was a baby-cryin sound
from elsewhere, it was my final glance
And it didn't out of my expectation
it was her baby which was the 'sack' she shouldered up