A Brand New Workin Life

I received the letter this afternoon, it was about my transfer, I got it! I'll be moving to Glenmarie, Shah Alam soon for another new job, hopefully it won't cost me a skeleton there. However, my job scope is unclear at the moment, It is just stated that I will be workin in the lab, but which department? unknown yet, Hopefully, I will get what I wish which are immunology, molecular biology and other preferable areas for preparing for my postgrad prog. Time flies, soon enough I wil further my study which is one of my dreams to get high qualification but where to?It's still a big question mark....Most probably I will just do it at USM and other considerable local universities since they've got abundant links which gonna strengthen my research and thus, my job-hunting. I am really looking forward to my life at Shah Alam, at least I've got chance to do what I like, such as preparing food myself and I will do more sport there since friends are more there. Meanwhile, I will look for another part-time job if possible like home-tuition teacher and part-time lecturer or tutor, in order to survive there. I am gonna miss Penang and everyone here! Take good care everyone! See ya!

Passion for work

'Passion for work' This does not really suit me since I have to have the passion for my life. But yet I always live with aim or target, that's what makes me alive. Thanks for always supporting everybody, my family, my gf and some loyal friends, you all light up the candle of my life. I was given an offer last week which indeed, very attractive to me, but I refused to take it. It could be one of the most crucial decisions in my life, but seems to me it doesnt mean anything now. It drove me in dilemma for few days in making up my mind. I like to take challenge but for me, after considering it several times, not this time as it is too extreme. The chief reason is that it does come into a crash with the aim I have set up earlier on regarding my future path. But anyhow, I am ok now, back to the initially modelled path, starting to move on. Hopefully everything will be going smoother than before. Bon voyage to my mum on her Singapore tour, a safe and marvellous journey, hopefully she would enjoy it. Very good luck to my gf who is goin to work soon, May God bless her to contain the surroundin and environment soon and the please gift her the pleasant colleagues. And also, happy birthday to her 70-going-to-be dad stay healthy and happy and finally to my dearest friends, do enjoy the semester break! Hooray!! You guys had done the good jobs in the previous semesters! Congratulation!

Awareness of Job Attitude

Yesterday was officially the day I worked after a month at the histology department. Things I learnt are considerably acceptable, it will gather more and more I suppose in this prolonged period. Here, I realised that how important a team-work is, if something goes wrong, it is not gonna be a single-body's fault, it's ours, yet the sad thing is, some people just don't realise it, not only they don't have the idea we should shoulder the blunder together, the most unacceptable is that they keep on blaming on a person who was the last that went through it, this is ridiculous since it actually went so many different stages and checked by different staff. This is just nonsense! In order to succeed something without a minimal mistakes, we should realise the importance in workin as a team rather than anything else.

The second thing is that politics always happen wherever it is. ONE nation is not an easy task to attain, It's never gonna achieve throughout my living age I could say so. I think workin in a premise, it's always briliant to try your best to stay free and never get involved into it, never a chance. In other words, try to be neutral as you can.

Like my job currently, at least it's not too bored at the moment! Really hope that my performance is gonna shorten my probation period. God bless!

Be an ambitious person

Sometimes you may not have achieved what you have been desperate for in such a long period. That shouldnt stop one from his or her continous endeavour as this, of sure will welcome rewards in the future, just yet, the period remains unknown, it's just the matter of time. This is classical since you never know what gonna happen next, who you gonna meet soon and so, this is the so-called rule or rthymn of life, we should always respect the way it works. So basically, we have just gotta ceaselessly put in effort or do what supposed to achieve one goal and only an ambitious guy will eventually get to the point. And of cuz, luck does play a major problem, yet we cant rely on it entirely since it comes and goes as if smoke...it's just an optional element in life i would say so, which may escalate your success, but not maintain it, it's your effort that does it!

New life

Started my entirely new life!
Thing is never easy when it comes in decision-making
but it must happen, somehow it counts on luck actually
Yes, it is but I appreciate what I've got
no matter it's the destiny or based on my judgement
I'm glad I had been courageous to go through it
and most importantly, the outcome is not too bad
Here I am!
The journey of my adulthood begins!
I never wanna be alone to face this
Hope you can always with me
I know you will
Two is better than one! by Boys Like Girls

Never say no to anything

That has always been with me
'Never say no to nothing'
Be brave to face
Be brave to solve
Be brave to be easy
All the best to my friend's friend
May God bless you
God can't give you a hand
unless you give it to yourself
Good luck for my job-hunting as well
It's gonna be a dramatical change in five-year time
All the best for my future
Bless me along the way
looking for my fortune
and everyone I know in the pink of health
cause no health, no wealth
This proverb couldnt be truer

I am ALIVE!

It has been a while!
Finally I got my certificate safe and sound this morning
and guess what, it isn't too bad.
So what's my plan next?
I would assume it would be at least for this moment
since thing does change in a blink of an eye
I wud not guarantee it for good
What I am gonna do is
to stay at Penang for my job while doin parttime course
hopefully everything can go as wishes.
I really hope I can secure a good job afterwards
But it gonna happen next month
for these coming days, I'll go for my long break
It's all about meet-up between friends, travel and food
before flipping an entirely new chapter of my life
- workin life
somebody say 'Yes, it's challenging and exciting!'
others say 'Damn it! it's damn boring life!'
For me, it's both! but it's a process giving a chance to us
to find our own fortune, to find our own happiness
We gotta go through it anyways
as long as we hold our breath
as we just can't survive without it
So, I really looking forward to it!
10 more days! we will be together once again!
stay patient! it wud be different spending days here with you!
Enjoy your europe trip!
Take exceptional good care!

I'm a Malaysian

I guess everything's settled at the moment. Thing has become simple after a 2-day London trip, more importantly, meeting up with my girlfriend's parents is not a harsh thing as expected, so everything gets easy and smooth. If you ask me whether or not I am under pressure, I will say no, but not entirely, after all it's my first time to face it in my life, guess it's the nature of it. But, indeed, I suppose I did good, was I not?

According to the self-planned schedule, I will go back to London twice for sending her parents back as well as fetching my mum and sister next month. Feeling good to have them attending my graduation ceremony, meanwhile, I gotta try my best to plan for their journey once they reach here just to arrange a perfect trip for them who will be staying here for a week - 2-day London trip plus 3-day Paris tour, hopefully that would be fun!

Frankly speaking, I have started feeling bored with London back on days even though it was just my second-time visit, can't imagine how's the days will be like afterwards. I will try my best to check and explore the new area in order to seize the euphoria. I will be comin back to London this weekend for reasons, can't wait to meet a friend up at Middlesex and most importantly the visits around her place under her lead.

What have I been doing for these few days which supposed to be the most relaxed period in my life after the exam? Other than waiting for my results, I started planning for where-to-go, both the destinations in London, around Sunderland and more importantly Paris. I was busy flipping through the guides and other alternative source of informations to hunt the hot spots down, it is not exaggerative to say that I never been so hardworking, not even when I was preparing for my exam, shameful enough to say so, but it's a truth believe or not......

So what's my plan after I get the certificate from the university? Go back to M'sia, that must be sure as I fucking miss everything of my country, friends food, etc.. Even I insist, VISA won't allow me too lol. What's next after being back to M'sia? I am still planning, either hunting for a better job or continue my studies with scholarship if I can. Thinking of this, my results here play a substantial role, hopefully It's not too bad.....

So, to all my dearestss
Take an exceptional good care and wait for me ya!
I will be back on 20 JUly!

Best luck for Exam!

Exam's on tomorrow - 14/5
First subject - Medical Microbiology 930-1230
My first hit target
Hopefully I was right for targeting this
Because the lecturer is the well-known
relatively less stricter marker in the university
Hope I was right
Following exams will be as below:
18/5 - Industrial microbiology
21/5 - Clinical Biochemistry
24/5 - Molecular Biology
2/6 - Immunology
Bless me!
Will be flyin top on the sky after that
Looking forward to London trip
and to meet up my friend- kah cheh
at Middlesex University

A Vanished Paternity

Sometimes there is an occasional moment
when I puzzle and murmur to myself
asking questions like that
'Do I look like lacking of something'
'Did I lose something'
'What do I lack of?'
as if pieces of me was tore off
without my consciousness by unknowns
The answer is always known
But it's hidden somewhere deep in my heart
as it hurts everytime it's being revealed

It was about a tragedy happened last year
A loss, which is invaluable, priceless and precious
Meanwhile it was also an incident making me
know myself better like never before
that I am a realistic and also numb person
The images, the scenes, the ambience
will never, ever gonna be outta my mind
no matter what

It was the break time that changed everything
which I could absolutely do nothing for
making me a 'deficient' person since
If you ever ask or being asked
this question you better be prepared
both mentally and physically
'Have you ever got 51 miss calls throughout your life?' hehe
Never take this lightly as a moron
or intend to make a stupid joke for that
It's not funny at all
Because it may or may not be something
which is gonna change your entire life
replacing whatever you got before with emptiness
again, being a 'short-of' person
Thing is still as clear as crystal water in my memory
I had a cold shot when I got the news
someone was crying at the other of recipient
something, which is not funny at all
'Have you ever got 51 miss calls throughout your life?' hehe

I learnt a valuable lesson that day
But the amends that took
was definitely too enormous
than one can imagine
Like I said earlier on
it was also an incident
making myself more transparent to be clear of
that I could take tragedy as a rainbow
that disappears within minutes

I grabbed the seat after being told about
as anyone would do, I reacted emotionally
But I was able to hold my tears, but not on purpose
Even though I was clear that sheding a tear
that time is nothing embarassing, unusual,
abnormal or unacceptable at all,
Yet strange enough, I just didn't, by nature
Though I know that something was really trapped in there
making my eye being thousands time heavier to blink
guess it was the time when my emotion level peaked
like never before
As it was the break time, one of the staff was there
she was the one and only witness,
she got everything I did right at the place
Right after a short while
I was able to cool myself down to do something practical
which was to head right away back......

Distancing it, it has been 10 months now
The truth is unimaginably cruel and dreadful
to face but it has to be, after all
There's nothing we can do about it
It's God will, I always respect it
I strongly believe from long ago
that it gotta be something better ahead awaits him,
it has to be, and there is no 'what if'
So I do see it as a 'let go'
Moreover, seem that under the circumstances,
that was the right time to leave
Just, It should have been more ordered
or organised in its way
After all 'Leaving' is never be
a welcoming or pleasant thing to see as
It's hard for the elders to confront and face
Hopefully they have gone through it by now

He had gone for his fortune and
we should go on either, pursuing what's desired
Life is short, we gotta treasure everything we still own
To share his, i think i can do it
As we had been getting together for quite some time
I guess i know what he really wanted to do
and wanted his sons and daughter to be
To have us to love our mum forever ever
To have a happy family and life, each of us
To have a strongly establised love among the family
To have hearts to care for the relatives
Eventually, to survive under the competing world
which is to have a stable work, constant income
These were what he wanted us to be
But how about his own dream
Even though he had left
I am pretty sure he is up there looking at us
we are under a strict and tightly linked surveillance
So as a son, I can't promise anything to fullfill his dream
but I individually, perhaps with helps from them,
or even my soul partner, will try our best to at least
make one or two below happen[s]
That's what I can promise based on my current ability
and forseeable strength in the future

To encourage myself continuously practising my talents
To open up a calligraphy class at my hometown or elsewhere
To set up a new home with entirely a new life
To organise a trip to China
To offer morally or monetarily support among us
To see us establishing our own business
To open up second branched hardware shop (home-business)
To have either one of us (Just Me) to secure Ph.D
To own a car with comfortable seats
To encourage me mastering my language (esp English)

Torbellion

Am I feeling stress recently due to the coming exam and other ongoin events? NO, well, it's not the true answer, YES, it's not either, because there is no answers at all for that following the dumb question. All I would say is that I have everything under 'controls', by having a habit to watch at least two movies daily, chinese plus english. I guess that's the only entertainment I've got so far to get myself balance. Before the date of 26 April, I will distribute my daily work as this, first half of day - doing my project report, and the rest of time for revision. Bear in minds that guys, it's all entertainment time between them, so in conclusion, there will be just maximally, 3 hours of report time plus 2 hours of revision, daily, I guess that's already more than enough for what that should be covered, even a congenital genius will not say so, as we all know that, that's a liar, knowledge is uncontainable and unengulfable. Every single second there is new knowledge of respective areas being posted on, not extravagant to say so, even God can't take it all. So currently, as the insights, what I got is to do my "best", again it's a liar to assume 3 plus 2 package as the best? No way! So to be correct, it's 'to do what I am destinied to do', that is, everything takes off from my bosses - my heart and mind. I will only do what they tell me to, I will never ever betray them.

I got something on my mind just today, from Eason's new album - TIME FLIES, couples of songs reflecting the kinda positive thinking of life, I suppose. To have it short, it is roughly trying to bring several mesages that time flies, life is short, humanities, and of cause, loves, in which nothing will be better than it to be a promoting theme for an album. It's like this, hopefully this would acquire consensus, if it's not, that's all I can get based on my understanding, so no offense, nothing to be blamed of.

Life is short, from the day we were born to the moment we are buried to the ground, we are chasing after the time, why ' chasing', because it's not gonna stop no matter how we scream on them and it's passing too fast that we will never get them, but it's always like never go so far from us, feeling like just few steps ahead us as if we can get it because we see it moving slowly, to some extent, every day which make us capable of managing it.That is the fact, we cant get to time, but we're better than anything else to manage it and adjust our events in our to-do list. In fact, the songs never taught me new things, just acted as reminders to continuously awake me, stimulating my awareness for something which has been forgetten with time.

So, in this competing world, who's the winner and what's determining it? A intelligent leader? A remarkable engineer? A top scientist? Or a rich man? To be correct, it strongly depends on your own will, and most importantly, God's will, as the universe's creator, He is the one who let us aware of our existence, and HE is the only who has the right to abolish the hope, wealth, fate, everythin HE has on us. And, this is where, Humanity comes into picture. We should never forget who we are, and What we are, a human, homosapiens, we shouldn't have lost the characteristics of human , not even a single one. One clear example is that for years, we have got this, satisfaction of wealth that blinds us up. Forgeting about the one's health, one can do anything no matter what, just to become a millionaire, whatever it takes, even being involved in crimes. Obviously, people nowadays are losing their mind, they have forgotten how to spell humanity, dat's a shame of us. That fits the theme of a movie, I hv forgotten its name, but the actor was the main character of MATRIX and CONSTANTINE, I can't remember his name either and just feeling lethargic to google it for nw. The movie was about the losing humanity(Loss of a ability to become human), there was a punisher, I cant't remember it's the GOD or the Alien either. According to them, one of them was sent to earth to destroy the whole planet, where there is human, but not other species, fishes and other animals, they were kept in a fancy magic ball to be transported to a new planet. And that guy was saying that, whatever we do here, they are watching us, for the past bygone years, they had sent different levels of warning to alert us by the natural disaster - outbreak, tsunami, flood, earthquake and so on, in order to awake us from the blindness, but they were just given in vains. Finally, the whole planet was destroyed but human being which left behind as a pair of chidren, with different sex of cause, was transported to a new planet to start a entirely new population, together with other species. I think this message was similarly, sent by one of the movies acted by nicolas cage as well, again I don't remember the name of it. It doesn't really matter, does it? It's the message that the director wants to bring to us that matters.

For me, what do I think about life and what I gonna do with it? I will make it as simple as possible, live heathily and enjoy it with the Mrs Right I love and looks like I already got one, I will never want to change it, this is not a naive thinkin, this has been seriously put into a consideration - level 3, classified. Getting rich as in wealth is not the ideal subject anymore, the real quality of life is that, you really enjoy it with your eyes opened, understanding the way how life operates as a cycle, this is the real meaning of it. And to achieve this, 'culture' and 'science' are the best aiders and they play their pivotal roles in this, to be a successful enjoyer!

Nescafe is never ever a good stuff.....

[7 April 2010; 8.09pm]Thought it was not too late to have a cup of nescafe as it would affect my sleeps, causing insomnia, just like last time, so i had it comfortably, without doubts.

[7 April 2010; 9.17pm]I was trying to finish up the section of my project's report by tonight as scheduled. I was combating with SPSS to sort things out, it wasn't too bad I guess.It is 3 more hours to go before reaching 12a.m

[7 April 2010; 11.23pm]Job was done. Needed to find way to gas out, so it was movie's time. 'GREEN ZONE' acted by Matt Damon - a war movie

[8 April 2010; 1.01am] Movies off, not really get impressed as his movies before. Feeling tired, guess it's time to squirm into my sleeping bag. Things started flashing through.

[8 April 2010; 2.01am]Eye lids up, Couldn't get into sleep. Never thought nescafe could be so strong, it is just unusual. Since i couldn't take a rest, why not have a go with my revision...

[8 April 2010;present time] Blogging, regretted the cup of nescafe, a valuable lesson ever. Will continue with my revision later on - food fermentation (an easy chapter seemed from the surface)

[8 April 2010;xxxxxxxx time] Pigging......

Next Schedule

It has been long
guess I was overloaded
never mind, back here though
but it never ends
I gonna be very very packed
for this coming weeks
courseworks/ presentation/
preparation for exam......
like i said, it never ends
Not until the coming June
when everythin is over
exam, and all
thinkin to travel somewhere
that i wud never have a chance
to load on after this
Yes, that is a deal for myself
will do that soon!
Mum is coming on July
for attending my convo
though uncle was not available
hope she won't blame him much
and hope she can find someone to accompany her
I guess the mum of the son
just can't wait to attend her son's academic ceremony
for the first time, shame on them
hope that's not the last one
oh yeah currently i got something on my head around
it's to continue my master's degree in M'sia
but i m not really sure which uni is the best option
If not i will just continue it
in Nottingham's university
guess the course should be all right
I will try and get someone suitable
to get me the useful information
Hopefully it is not too late

Happy CNY & Valentine!

What to say?Time flies.....
A blink of an eye, a flip of a page
One year has gone, it's 2010 this year
and being unconscious of the fact
I am 21-year-old guy already
Not too long from the future
I will be going out there
independently hunting for my job
Finding opportunity to make money
It's gonna be very challenging out there I suppose
I will find ways to go through it though

Two more weeks later
That will be CNY and my first valentine ever
I don't really interest in CNY this year
as i am not gonna be back to my sweet home
celebrating with my family and friends
That sounds sad but I remain no choices
Hope the latter one will compensate for the loss
I am sure it will
Guess what we are going to Edinburgh this time
We got to know from friends
that's a beautiful and magnificent old town
most of the hot spots are lying within the area
and it just looks tempting and attractive
looking from the pictures displayed
in the tourist guide and information
from the official website
Hopefully those are all real
and we will have it etched in our memory
for that very moment forever and ever
Sweet huh Yeah it is!
Don't ruin my plan please.....

All the best for your test!
Cheers all!

Being together.....

Whatever things i gonna go through
sooner and later will be fine I suppose.
We are taking three modules this term
Advanced Molecular Biology
Industrial Biotech
Clinical Biochem
plus the never-ending project
Things are being more fun
as we are getting the idea
more and more in depth
hopefully we are
Everything is comin and endin so soon
no one ever doubts it apparently
few months later i will be back to my home land
really miss the whole picture of it
every single bits of it

And yes, it's almost a month since we got together
she is as nice as she was
dat's why i chose her undoubtedly
we are getting in days by days
It will persist for ages I am sure of
By the ways, all the best to your exam on this Fri

End of 2009: Sick but sweet (BLESS)

To be frank, there wasn't any memorable bits worth to be recalled when i was stepping almost the edge of 09 except the haunting illness, it's just very much frustrating and annoying, making me bedridden all the time, being a useless tool for almost a week or more than that. I was first shocked by my own defense system, never I fell sick for a week, it was just unbelievable, but it's a fact now, I do accept it by admitting my weakness. Time has got nothing to do in this case but waking and boosting me up to confront the fact. People often say, it's because of the climate here, particularly this winter season, has severely lengthen patient's sufferring period, or perhaps, as a foreigner to be first stamping on this new land, I will take time to adapt myself to the new disease-causing germs here unlike those at my fatherland or Asia, the latter one is more reliable, so i will think about it. No worries. I do get better now, thanks to my very special person. Without you, I wouldn't have been better than days before, really appreciate that, thanks and love ya!

Meeting you would be the one and only thing worth it in 2009.
May our relationship lasts forever, God bless.

Losing you was the only unfortunate thing this year 2009. However, I wont see it as a loss in my life, instead i will revert it as a strength to be a more caring person illuminating myself, brighten up people around me especially my family.
May they happy always, God bless.

I know you will be always standing somewhere up there, far from us, peeping through to have a clear sight on us, blessing and supporting us for whatever we decide and do. I am certain about this.