Sharing, a release?

Holy shit! I am really not in study mood lately
not even wanna flip pages of at least one
not at all, it's bad i realise that
But I just couldn't God save me from that
Flee me perhaps from the haunting lethargy
It should be done dealing with me
Anyways i will get better soon I guess

I was gossipping like a fortieth aunties few days ago
With some friends here at starbuck for the first time
But I didn't really enjoy the conversation
Cause I was like a host as well as the one and only guest there
I prefer talking to the walls than that lol
Don't bother, just wanna spend some time out there
rather than self-locking in the room
Why cant I just get a mamak or kopitiam here?
We can talk till the sunrise of the next day
with the cheap milk tea or perhaps chinese tea
Miss the days we were out for gossiping a lot guys

The second gossip took place in my room
We chatted until 4 o'clock morning
Amazing and unbelievable huh?
I have the same thought too
What to say, time flies lol
We exchanged our pasts
For the effort to have our background understood
But it would never happen
as people just like to keep privacies
which they think it is unrivalled and unsharable
This is normal ......

At this ages, we just like to talk about the boys and gurls stuff
Lovely isn't it? So be it, we shared those stuff
Flirting, first love, puppy-love and so on
I seriously think that it's a good thing
because by sharing, you dig into your mind for the memory
seeking, recalling, processing, enjoying
The feeling when the memorable nostagia flash back into your mind
is irresistable, makes me good
especially one who ever lived in fascinating life like me

I find myself in love with sharing
but it's in uhm confined way, not thoroughly
Cause it's just something
something which is a great shame to share about
Damn it! Why me!

Perhaps HE loves me more than any others else
HE always wants me to experience more
Exposes me to the stress and bad scenes
So that i would take it as a lesson
Learn and get something useful from them
Reflecting all those unpleasant stuffs
by processing an issue from numerous perspectives
That's what make a real me today
To be more mature, optimistic perhaps
To think about things deeply into layers
Thank you Mr. GOD! Appreciate it!
I am unbeaten after all

Distance a better explanation of a relationship

It has been a nature
where human live in
The farther you are away from a thing
The more intense you will miss it
that explains the reason why recently
i find myself frequently poping in and out on FB
since that's one of the media I can use
to keep in touch with my lovely friends
and at least to keep some memorable nostalgia
plus the 'jerk' recent uploaded photos
when we were young- primary school
it has got nth to say about
MISS THOSE DAYS A LOT
really wish i could travel back to the past
so do you, don't you?
So u see, how distance plays its vital role here
It links a friendship up
It matches a couple up
It closes a family up
and It unites a nation up

I cant recall when was the last time
I was actually making friends
Cause we seem to know more and more people
days after days without a consciousness
This is normal as in denoting a friendly person
Yes you are right
I am praising myself here
Don't you agreeeee?
I am sure most of ya would give the green light lol
This is how distance plays its role in friendship
It cuts off the intangible distance between hearts
of two person who initially didn't know each other
until they become plain friend
upgrade to best friend afterwards by chance
or probably couple if the lines do overlay in the proper way
at the right environment
at the right time
at the right place

I have witnessed most of the cases happened
The switch of relationship between pairs
developed from plain friend, erm...acceptable
developed from best friend, hmmm...predictable
even, developed from cat and dog,
sort of strange but indeed, it's in high chance
Everything is fated to happen for God's sake

So, to all my dearest friends, sisters and brothers
Whenever there is a chance for ya to leap off the gap
especially to kickstart an affair
just face and accept it
worry about how long it gonna sustain?
whether it's gonna be a forever or short affair?
will it be as the last short-term ex-puppy-affair?
you wont know until you own it
and inject in whatever neccessary to sustain the relationship
In the process, you feel the joy and enjoy it
This is simply a true & pure love......
Not to say from a perspective of a flirty guy
you dont shoulder any resposibilities up in an affair
unless accidentally or with deliberation
you create a new born life or get married

So just enjoy the process
for wooing and being wooed
Being emotional is just not a great idea
to grab another fortune of life
Life moves on my friend
Dont keep looking back
Not everything is awful and awkward
as what you had undergone
Let bygones be begones
There is still another bright lamp
for you to pull and switch on
brightening him or her
brightening yourself
It's on your hand

Be brave and be blessed

Intangible Role

Believe it or not we just have a single role to play in
From time to time, stages to stages, youngs to elders
It could be an enormous difference crossing the intervals
If you see yourself through at the end of the day
Indeed it's like a 2-hour movie, a sudden characteristic leap
Could just happen within seconds
confronting an unforeseen circumstance, a situation
Movie, it does reflect how things go on in the real world

As for the role we played, playin or will play
I would direct it to responsibility shall I
Time, apparently precious than anything else in the universe
It's so as it doesnt travel back
Regardless of your age, life moves on as a cycle
we've all got different responsibilities
Depending on which part of the cycle you are currently positioned
A student? A child? A boss? A dad? A leader? A follower, etc......
It's just very much different from each other
yet, it's all your choice, you chose it, and you gona face the music
That's exactly how a responsible person presents himself
Success or failure. it's just lying between your fingers
If you have your responsibility thoroughly attained
and managed to find the way presenting it
You gonna hv everythin more than a success

I am a Bsc student,
a son of a mother,
a brother of siblings,
a grandson of grandparents

With all kind of responsibilites
Everyday I ask myself 'Have I partially done any?'
It doesnt proceed other than just a question
a question I ask everyday
an answer I seek everyday


Note to share nextime ----D-I-S-T-A-N-C-E

Love no other, but yourself!

Each of us has got different insight on certain things, thus causing conflict and crisis. But if it does manage to be suppressed, nothing would occur but peace. Unfortunately, it's not gona happen unless someone find himself a way to step on the stage of the world and declare his idea of genetical unity in human species, with a proper reason of cause. Guess what, we all will have same behaviour, voice and everything else, even look due to the 100% similarity in genetic composition. Then, there is high chance that crisis would be brought to a halt, no wars, no fighting, no nothing as we all have got consensus on everything. Yet this makes no sense! You don't want me to explain that!

Back in here using human language, so in order to minimise whatever mayhem or havoc to happen, always, we need to tolerate and try our best to think from others' perspectives or point of view.......I'm good in talking shit, but never good in having it as a practice even how hard i try, perhaps the uh, self-esteem just appears itself as dominant gene rather than the capability of tolerating. It recessively hides somewhere deep beneath the genetic codes all the time lol ........ We gotta respect the human rights to think, speak up and behave the way others like without overcrossing the legislative laws. So I think i'm doin better in this aspect and YOU DON'T HAVE RIGHT TO STOP ME CRAPPING HERE

Everyone seems to have his or her vex all the time, a major one, a minor one, depends on how you take it, even a psycho has his own vex, to break out from the place he's locked. It's life, isn't it? This is how you spell it! What I think is that, getting through or moving on life itself is the problem, challenges emerge days after days, not to mention the stony and spiky walkways ahead. Since we are well notified about this, why not we let out heart down, throwing aside the negativities instead of worryin stuff and being sad for reasons that it shouldn't be? Rather than spending time on sorrow and anxiety, why not just be easy and fill up your gut with joy, working out something to get yourself prepared and ready for tomorrow[s]? It's not neccesary to be a bad day tomorrow, it might be a wonderful day instead, always remind yourself life is adventurous and fulled of surprises. You might be a 1 million winner, meeting up your life partner, a faithful friend, a kind employer, being promoted, having a pair of twins, etc tomorrow, nobody knows.

The message i wanna deliver here is that day comes after day, even you encounter something nasty today, you still need to wake up, stretching your eyes muscle for tomorrow's sunlight. This has been the routine and it's not gonna stop until you would never feel it one day facing your mortality.

SO JUST ACCEPT THE COMINGS and I beg you here, please
NO MATTER WHAT, KEEP THE UNHAPINESS THAT HAPPENING BEFORE AWAY

Love yourself!


TO ALL MY DEAREST GROUP OF FRIENDS......