Tedious feeling

I suppose to have a feeling of warm, sweet, comfortable, name it stayin here, dont i?But i just got neither.First of all, weather is scorchingly hot here & life here means nothing to me, watching the idiot box & eating are my routine, I tried myself to get fled from them by doing thing that makes me a more knowledgeable person, but i couldnt.Maybe the environment here is not conducive enough to make me turning a single page of book over, or it's just a lethargy of my ownself. Oh my gosh!It's hard to believe that i have started missing "nilai"..