The power of positive thinking

It has been seven weeks since the last time I left, things around still seem not to be so good, it would torture one to death somehow. I could timely sense the grief, stress, sorrow and any other negativities. I know all of these would unavoidably go for months or even years which nobody can change it, if it continues the way it does now, i am sure worser picture will emerge in the coming days I swear to God and eventually everything and everyone will get the passive and resistant impacts. I think for now, I know why the director of the film ' The Day When The Earth Stood Still' had the idea to have his film published. I used to think it was a moronic movie ever, but now, it kinda makes sense, human beings are too weak from all perspectives, mainly twisted and fooled by their emotions. There is nothing that I could think of for a 20-year-old 'boy' (if you prefer to call me that, frankly I am not really feeling cozy for that) to do confronting the spiky and thorny currents, this is unusual and totally not ordinary as far as I could tell. I know I am facing a severe imbalance for my mental thoughts which is a fact, but take note of that, a patient especially a psychopath usually doesn't compare himself with others who are normal as they think they are, so I dare to assure you that I am a 100% normal guy living in pink and for the case of my mental problems, i think I've got a self-producing remedy to take care of it. I was once having a negative thought to give up the family i owned, it's just too hectic to ones couldn't imagine to play a role of it, now it flows through my nerves again, so should I? I am just helpless and tiny to have every problem solved which is not gonna happen, how jealous am I to those who have simple and easy family. Please pals, do me a favour I do not expect any feedbacks for this post,i just deliver what i think it's necessary to make myself better. Like I always do, I am okay, to all my adorable buddies, I've learned to take better care of myself and to solve the problem the way it supposed to be. I'll only do whatever I think it's right, but to be honest, i'm indeed in despair with family, right now, I'll only take a responsibility selectively other than those supposingly. You know better than what I mean! I can't do much thing except for finishin my studies as you wished. Do stay by my side and please, give your best shot to everyone whom you left without warning. Do whatever you can to dwindle her pressure and most importantly, her misses to you to make her life better. Rest in peace after then....God bless