I'd buried myself in the deep black hole

I can't still eradicate her from my mind
which I thought I did
Put the blame on me!
It's my nature! I am just too emotional sometime
when I am dealing thing
It reveals my weakness
which I can't make it right
until the end of the day I believe

I'd tried! But it's just difficult to get rid of something!
Especially you have it in mind all the time
as you get in touch with it

I know I should always wish her the best
by not interfering into the affair
which I never ever have that bloody intention
instead most of time i find millions of excuses
to compel to ensure it's not gonna happen between us


It's hard! HARD!
& IT'S JUST HARD!!

Any better idea>??????
Advise me before I get lost.......