Life moves on with miracles......

Transition Stage

2011-11-07T19:57:00.002+08:00

After nearly a month of rest plus trip, I find it hard to make a come-back to my brand new study/ working life, however I am certain that this is just a transition stage, and this is pretty much normal. After a week of continuous jobs, i will be just fine getting back to my actual life, lighting up the flame of my heart. A very first step to achieve this is to drench myself with trillions of papers, accustom my mind to a used-to-be me, it will take some times undeniably. 14th November is an important day to open a new chapter up in my life - the day I officially join my institute, this may be nothing to anybody, but it is different, very different to me because only me myself knew how hard I have come through. Moreover, there is nothing to talk about or kinda highlight on as a great achievement since there is still a long way to go to reach the space. I am confident to be slightly different from other graduates after a gain of experience from different departments, but this will not stop me down. I believe that making an ideal person as an idol could help and boost me up to shine in the field, I have got one already. Because of him, I know my degree is on safe hand in 2.5 years. Looking forward to join you all!

MY HEART, MY FUTURE, MY DECISION

Flipping a new chapter of life

2011-11-03T21:14:00.002+08:00

Finally I got my admission letter after so long of waiting waiting and waiting, at least I am not doing it for vain like a boy's waiting for his set meal in the restaurant without taking order. Anyways, my study life is starting soon, hopefully I can get a conducive place to stay for coming months, most importantly the communication between us - group mates and supervisors, all the best to me.

More competitions to go this month, I really hope I can make it monstered by interests. I am going for my registration tomorrow and also to meet one of my co-supervisors at the main campus, I am sure the meeting will be great and smooth.

........a man is nothing without a dream.....

my first post

2011-07-28T21:17:00.003+08:00

今天过了漫长的一天，
为部门的Datin欢送，
大家都穿上红衣，好像过新年。
她很令人尊敬，我想她走后我们损失会很大。
说真的，在政府部门工作，
这里让我看到各种人，
当然有些很勤劳，
可是有些人却比较懒散，
有时会忍不住看不过眼，
人多是非多，
我最近学会了要管好自己，做好自己本分就好。
最重要对得起自己。

7月尾声了，8月让我期待，
有很多和dear的计划，
想念他，
思念是一种很玄的东西，hehe..

A bizarre feeling

2011-07-25T22:33:00.003+08:00

I felt kinda released hearing that my presentation and the proposal went well and I will get the posted letter from USM soon, which is an acceptance letter. I really wish that this is true after so many things turned up. Now I know that applying for a studyship is not an easy procedure, in and out, from the first day you find your potential supervisor till you get your offer letter, communication with your supervisor is the key and finding a kind and knowledgeable one is a crucial credit, and I hope that I have one.

The feeling is nothing more, but odd. While waiting for the letter, I am planning for my on-coming trip to HK, as usual, I am the planner. 5 of us are going, Mum, me, cheng, sis, and ping, hope that it gonna be a wonderful trip. Other than HK city, we plan to visit ShenZhen, Zhuhai and Macau which is an one-week tour, the whole trip.

Few months passed, Making me more matured?

2011-07-22T17:47:00.003+08:00

I was too tired (lazy perhaps) to write anything on here for the past few months. Though tonnes of things turned up. So now I am currently waiting for my reply from USM for my PhD. Just hope that It will go smoothly and the outcome would be what I expected. Months passed, making my thinkin more matured (I THINK) and more acceptable to what I really want myself to be in the future - which is simply LIFE. With all the motivation and support from my potential supervisor and also my family, I knew that the choices I made were correct and I am goin into it! Reading papers or in other words, gaining knowledge can be an enjoyable process, sometime and it happens unconsciously. Lecturing is a way to find your confidence and I agree with this as well. More and more FREE lessons and phrases I heard were actually from nowhere, but from my going-to-be supervisor. Wish to work with him one day or maybe soon. He is a nice guy and knowledgeable at least to me at this current level of knowledge.

When a Biology graduate becomes a Chemist

2011-04-30T17:36:00.003+08:00

3 May is the day I gona begin my career all over again. 'All over again'? Not that bad I guess, it sounds like a man who has been just annouced 'bankrupt'. But it's a big matter for me, I can't determine whether it's a right choice or not, but it's just it, go on with anything from your bottom of your heart, that will be great, that's what I always insist. And, I think it makes sense since your heart(mind) is the primary source which drives everything, things you like, dislike, hate and so forth.

It's a little bit of 'nervous' when you ask me 'what you feel on your 'new' job? I think it should be a plus on it which are interesting and excited since it's quite ideally a different field from what I have been dealing with before - histology (human organs & tissues) and serology (human blood and serum), and very soon, food whether it's rotted or in well condition gonna be my babies soon. Welcome to BP Food Testing! I am gonna face them for the next 5 months until I end my contract and service here.

Finally I submitted all the documents to USM IPS for my PhD application. Relieved? Partially or No, not until I get my offer letter from the university. Next will be the scholarship, Life is never-ending at this stage, really. But it is blessed that we live with hopes and faiths. I think after this, Knowledge will be the only guide in my life since I chose this path, to study, to be a research, to publish papers, to be recognised. Hopefully my supervisor is not too bad in his guide to make me through all the way long.

All da best to me and TO my Colleagues and Friends....Missss yehhhh....

Travelling makes life good?

2011-04-01T11:34:00.002+08:00

Is really travelling can relax yourself?
Depends on where you go and who you go with.
Your partners or companions won't be differ from usual one
who are your family, friends, or gurl/boy friend.
Which one would you think the best to go with?
Personally, I would say friends or your soul mate
I am sure this is common answer you will get
From people around you cuz it's just a literally true fact.
Cuz the gap of communication is lesser, area of interest and
perspectives of being fun or enjoy are different
Simple questions can sense the difference

'What do you like to do when travelling?'
Try new and tasty food? Going for thrilling adventure?
Or just flee yourself from hustle-bustle, walking alone
on the less hectic and crowded city, embraced yourself
by the beauty of surrounding, though nothing actually around,
just to seek for a piece of peace in your heart and mind.

OR,
'What do you think is the most important thing to do while travelling?'
Taking pictures, that is indispendable! Learning others' cultures, or
nothing, just go by how it will be, somebody like to collect postcards,
buying sourvenirs for friends and family and many more,
there are awful variable.

But still, Travelling is really a true way to live with quality of life.
So I like it! But, it's a vacant dream without money........
Money comes in first for everything. We are just slaves of IT, nothing much.

My trip schedule:
23 Oct - 29 OCt 2011 - Hong Kong
3 Feb - 9 Feb 2012 - Sarawak (still dont know whether or not can survive by then)

Because the world's end is coming,
maybe that is the date we will be on the runs
Finding safer place!

Here Begins My Chef LIfe Again

2011-01-26T09:42:00.003+08:00

I never really cooked since living in UK except some noodles in packets, it doesn't take even a second. The gas stove will be set up later on, glad because I can cook again! lol. That's why I bought the second-handed mini-sized fridge last week which cost me 130RM, it isn't expensive at all for long-term saving since food here are extremely pricy especially at Shah Alam. Economy rice with 1 type of vege and meat will cost you 5 bucks, unbeliavable isn't it? But the price at USJ where I stay still okie, it costs me about 3.50 bucks, but still, I gonna cook! Why? Cuz I just enjoy it! Do what I want, Cook what I like! lol.....

Finally the poor pharmacist had her salary banked in after so long. She must be excited like hell lol. Good news to her, just hope that she will use them appropriately, save more money if possible. Wish you all the best for not getting much stress while working! Will cook some nice food to you whenever there is a chance.

Days with night shift!

2011-01-24T12:09:00.002+08:00

After workin here for almost 1 month, I am gonna have night shift tonight which is from 1pm to 10pm, not too late as expected since the initially scheduled was from 3pm to 12am, that is really gonna be damn tiring! I am looking forward to it later on, I heard it's gonna be 2 times busy than the morning shift due to the doubled-up workloads, hopefully it's not so true and it's just, the seniors wanted to scare us off, but anyhow, everything will reveal sooner, the truth and lies......

CNY is around the corner, the celebration this year is gona be totally different from last year in UK. That was a great memory though, a different and special one! For me it won't be so fun too this year since the holiday isn't long for me to enjoy it thoroughly, guess this is what they call oftenly ' It's like that! Workin Life!' I got 5 days holidays altogether including 2 unpaid leaves which are the first and the last day of the duration. I should thank GOD that those two days were approved instead of start blaming any lol......

What my wishes this new year? To all my friends and family - happy and healthy always as simple as that but seems that those things are the most difficult to attain in the universe, but yet I still hope that it will realise...... Gona be selfish too sometime. Grab some light from it, wanna wish myself a smooth year, most importantly a better one for my postgrad......

A new lab life

2011-01-07T20:31:00.002+08:00

After stayin' for 3 months at BP Penang as a histo technician, I am now a MLT workin in Serology Department. An extremely big thanks to those who helped me a lot in my first job at Penang, A huge favour you all had given to me, not to forget those who ever proposed me to the management for the post, thanks for lookin-up, I really never expected I would be eyed on, and really really sorry for dissapointment for not taking over, anyhow, appreciation is mine. I will never forget those days we spent together for 3 months though it was too short, it could be the most important part of my life for just, everything! Thx for opportunity given and the forgiveness for any mistakes I'd done.

Now, I'm workin as a MLT, though the routine works are not too unfamiliar to me, after all I am a Biotech graduate who had 6 months practical at molecular lab, handling with kits are my profession lol, so as a result, I do adapt to the new environment with outstanding speed I suppose lol. But, anyways I am okie with current job IF the workload isn't heavy enough.

Meanwhile, I am looking my universities for furthering my study, UM and UKM will be my first choices rather than other private universities. Really hope that they will accept me and will be even delighted if I am offered scholarship and given a chance to work with an expert in the wanted field. Wish me good luck!!

A Brand New Workin Life

2010-12-17T21:44:00.002+08:00

I received the letter this afternoon, it was about my transfer, I got it! I'll be moving to Glenmarie, Shah Alam soon for another new job, hopefully it won't cost me a skeleton there. However, my job scope is unclear at the moment, It is just stated that I will be workin in the lab, but which department? unknown yet, Hopefully, I will get what I wish which are immunology, molecular biology and other preferable areas for preparing for my postgrad prog. Time flies, soon enough I wil further my study which is one of my dreams to get high qualification but where to?It's still a big question mark....Most probably I will just do it at USM and other considerable local universities since they've got abundant links which gonna strengthen my research and thus, my job-hunting. I am really looking forward to my life at Shah Alam, at least I've got chance to do what I like, such as preparing food myself and I will do more sport there since friends are more there. Meanwhile, I will look for another part-time job if possible like home-tuition teacher and part-time lecturer or tutor, in order to survive there. I am gonna miss Penang and everyone here! Take good care everyone! See ya!

Passion for work

2010-12-08T22:49:00.002+08:00

'Passion for work' This does not really suit me since I have to have the passion for my life. But yet I always live with aim or target, that's what makes me alive. Thanks for always supporting everybody, my family, my gf and some loyal friends, you all light up the candle of my life. I was given an offer last week which indeed, very attractive to me, but I refused to take it. It could be one of the most crucial decisions in my life, but seems to me it doesnt mean anything now. It drove me in dilemma for few days in making up my mind. I like to take challenge but for me, after considering it several times, not this time as it is too extreme. The chief reason is that it does come into a crash with the aim I have set up earlier on regarding my future path. But anyhow, I am ok now, back to the initially modelled path, starting to move on. Hopefully everything will be going smoother than before. Bon voyage to my mum on her Singapore tour, a safe and marvellous journey, hopefully she would enjoy it. Very good luck to my gf who is goin to work soon, May God bless her to contain the surroundin and environment soon and the please gift her the pleasant colleagues. And also, happy birthday to her 70-going-to-be dad stay healthy and happy and finally to my dearest friends, do enjoy the semester break! Hooray!! You guys had done the good jobs in the previous semesters! Congratulation!

Awareness of Job Attitude

2010-10-21T18:18:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was officially the day I worked after a month at the histology department. Things I learnt are considerably acceptable, it will gather more and more I suppose in this prolonged period. Here, I realised that how important a team-work is, if something goes wrong, it is not gonna be a single-body's fault, it's ours, yet the sad thing is, some people just don't realise it, not only they don't have the idea we should shoulder the blunder together, the most unacceptable is that they keep on blaming on a person who was the last that went through it, this is ridiculous since it actually went so many different stages and checked by different staff. This is just nonsense! In order to succeed something without a minimal mistakes, we should realise the importance in workin as a team rather than anything else.

The second thing is that politics always happen wherever it is. ONE nation is not an easy task to attain, It's never gonna achieve throughout my living age I could say so. I think workin in a premise, it's always briliant to try your best to stay free and never get involved into it, never a chance. In other words, try to be neutral as you can.

Like my job currently, at least it's not too bored at the moment! Really hope that my performance is gonna shorten my probation period. God bless!

Be an ambitious person

2010-10-13T21:43:00.003+08:00

Sometimes you may not have achieved what you have been desperate for in such a long period. That shouldnt stop one from his or her continous endeavour as this, of sure will welcome rewards in the future, just yet, the period remains unknown, it's just the matter of time. This is classical since you never know what gonna happen next, who you gonna meet soon and so, this is the so-called rule or rthymn of life, we should always respect the way it works. So basically, we have just gotta ceaselessly put in effort or do what supposed to achieve one goal and only an ambitious guy will eventually get to the point. And of cuz, luck does play a major problem, yet we cant rely on it entirely since it comes and goes as if smoke...it's just an optional element in life i would say so, which may escalate your success, but not maintain it, it's your effort that does it!

New life

2010-09-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

Started my entirely new life!
Thing is never easy when it comes in decision-making
but it must happen, somehow it counts on luck actually
Yes, it is but I appreciate what I've got
no matter it's the destiny or based on my judgement
I'm glad I had been courageous to go through it
and most importantly, the outcome is not too bad
Here I am!
The journey of my adulthood begins!
I never wanna be alone to face this
Hope you can always with me
I know you will
Two is better than one! by Boys Like Girls

Never say no to anything

2010-08-12T16:17:00.002+08:00

That has always been with me
'Never say no to nothing'
Be brave to face
Be brave to solve
Be brave to be easy
All the best to my friend's friend
May God bless you
God can't give you a hand
unless you give it to yourself
Good luck for my job-hunting as well
It's gonna be a dramatical change in five-year time
All the best for my future
Bless me along the way
looking for my fortune
and everyone I know in the pink of health
cause no health, no wealth
This proverb couldnt be truer

I am ALIVE!

2010-08-09T23:28:00.002+08:00

It has been a while!
Finally I got my certificate safe and sound this morning
and guess what, it isn't too bad.
So what's my plan next?
I would assume it would be at least for this moment
since thing does change in a blink of an eye
I wud not guarantee it for good
What I am gonna do is
to stay at Penang for my job while doin parttime course
hopefully everything can go as wishes.
I really hope I can secure a good job afterwards
But it gonna happen next month
for these coming days, I'll go for my long break
It's all about meet-up between friends, travel and food
before flipping an entirely new chapter of my life
- workin life
somebody say 'Yes, it's challenging and exciting!'
others say 'Damn it! it's damn boring life!'
For me, it's both! but it's a process giving a chance to us
to find our own fortune, to find our own happiness
We gotta go through it anyways
as long as we hold our breath
as we just can't survive without it
So, I really looking forward to it!
10 more days! we will be together once again!
stay patient! it wud be different spending days here with you!
Enjoy your europe trip!
Take exceptional good care!

I'm a Malaysian

2010-06-08T20:24:00.002+08:00

I guess everything's settled at the moment. Thing has become simple after a 2-day London trip, more importantly, meeting up with my girlfriend's parents is not a harsh thing as expected, so everything gets easy and smooth. If you ask me whether or not I am under pressure, I will say no, but not entirely, after all it's my first time to face it in my life, guess it's the nature of it. But, indeed, I suppose I did good, was I not?

According to the self-planned schedule, I will go back to London twice for sending her parents back as well as fetching my mum and sister next month. Feeling good to have them attending my graduation ceremony, meanwhile, I gotta try my best to plan for their journey once they reach here just to arrange a perfect trip for them who will be staying here for a week - 2-day London trip plus 3-day Paris tour, hopefully that would be fun!

Frankly speaking, I have started feeling bored with London back on days even though it was just my second-time visit, can't imagine how's the days will be like afterwards. I will try my best to check and explore the new area in order to seize the euphoria. I will be comin back to London this weekend for reasons, can't wait to meet a friend up at Middlesex and most importantly the visits around her place under her lead.

What have I been doing for these few days which supposed to be the most relaxed period in my life after the exam? Other than waiting for my results, I started planning for where-to-go, both the destinations in London, around Sunderland and more importantly Paris. I was busy flipping through the guides and other alternative source of informations to hunt the hot spots down, it is not exaggerative to say that I never been so hardworking, not even when I was preparing for my exam, shameful enough to say so, but it's a truth believe or not......

So what's my plan after I get the certificate from the university? Go back to M'sia, that must be sure as I fucking miss everything of my country, friends food, etc.. Even I insist, VISA won't allow me too lol. What's next after being back to M'sia? I am still planning, either hunting for a better job or continue my studies with scholarship if I can. Thinking of this, my results here play a substantial role, hopefully It's not too bad.....

So, to all my dearestss
Take an exceptional good care and wait for me ya!
I will be back on 20 JUly!

Best luck for Exam!

2010-05-14T05:41:00.003+08:00

Exam's on tomorrow - 14/5
First subject - Medical Microbiology 930-1230
My first hit target
Hopefully I was right for targeting this
Because the lecturer is the well-known
relatively less stricter marker in the university
Hope I was right
Following exams will be as below:
18/5 - Industrial microbiology
21/5 - Clinical Biochemistry
24/5 - Molecular Biology
2/6 - Immunology
Bless me!
Will be flyin top on the sky after that
Looking forward to London trip
and to meet up my friend- kah cheh
at Middlesex University

A Vanished Paternity

2010-04-12T08:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes there is an occasional moment
when I puzzle and murmur to myself
asking questions like that
'Do I look like lacking of something'
'Did I lose something'
'What do I lack of?'
as if pieces of me was tore off
without my consciousness by unknowns
The answer is always known
But it's hidden somewhere deep in my heart
as it hurts everytime it's being revealed

It was about a tragedy happened last year
A loss, which is invaluable, priceless and precious
Meanwhile it was also an incident making me
know myself better like never before
that I am a realistic and also numb person
The images, the scenes, the ambience
will never, ever gonna be outta my mind
no matter what

It was the break time that changed everything
which I could absolutely do nothing for
making me a 'deficient' person since
If you ever ask or being asked
this question you better be prepared
both mentally and physically
'Have you ever got 51 miss calls throughout your life?' hehe
Never take this lightly as a moron
or intend to make a stupid joke for that
It's not funny at all
Because it may or may not be something
which is gonna change your entire life
replacing whatever you got before with emptiness
again, being a 'short-of' person
Thing is still as clear as crystal water in my memory
I had a cold shot when I got the news
someone was crying at the other of recipient
something, which is not funny at all
'Have you ever got 51 miss calls throughout your life?' hehe

I learnt a valuable lesson that day
But the amends that took
was definitely too enormous
than one can imagine
Like I said earlier on
it was also an incident
making myself more transparent to be clear of
that I could take tragedy as a rainbow
that disappears within minutes

I grabbed the seat after being told about
as anyone would do, I reacted emotionally
But I was able to hold my tears, but not on purpose
Even though I was clear that sheding a tear
that time is nothing embarassing, unusual,
abnormal or unacceptable at all,
Yet strange enough, I just didn't, by nature
Though I know that something was really trapped in there
making my eye being thousands time heavier to blink
guess it was the time when my emotion level peaked
like never before
As it was the break time, one of the staff was there
she was the one and only witness,
she got everything I did right at the place
Right after a short while
I was able to cool myself down to do something practical
which was to head right away back......

Distancing it, it has been 10 months now
The truth is unimaginably cruel and dreadful
to face but it has to be, after all
There's nothing we can do about it
It's God will, I always respect it
I strongly believe from long ago
that it gotta be something better ahead awaits him,
it has to be, and there is no 'what if'
So I do see it as a 'let go'
Moreover, seem that under the circumstances,
that was the right time to leave
Just, It should have been more ordered
or organised in its way
After all 'Leaving' is never be
a welcoming or pleasant thing to see as
It's hard for the elders to confront and face
Hopefully they have gone through it by now

He had gone for his fortune and
we should go on either, pursuing what's desired
Life is short, we gotta treasure everything we still own
To share his, i think i can do it
As we had been getting together for quite some time
I guess i know what he really wanted to do
and wanted his sons and daughter to be
To have us to love our mum forever ever
To have a happy family and life, each of us
To have a strongly establised love among the family
To have hearts to care for the relatives
Eventually, to survive under the competing world
which is to have a stable work, constant income
These were what he wanted us to be
But how about his own dream
Even though he had left
I am pretty sure he is up there looking at us
we are under a strict and tightly linked surveillance
So as a son, I can't promise anything to fullfill his dream
but I individually, perhaps with helps from them,
or even my soul partner, will try our best to at least
make one or two below happen[s]
That's what I can promise based on my current ability
and forseeable strength in the future

To encourage myself continuously practising my talents
To open up a calligraphy class at my hometown or elsewhere
To set up a new home with entirely a new life
To organise a trip to China
To offer morally or monetarily support among us
To see us establishing our own business
To open up second branched hardware shop (home-business)
To have either one of us (Just Me) to secure Ph.D
To own a car with comfortable seats
To encourage me mastering my language (esp English)

Torbellion

2010-04-10T05:40:00.004+08:00

Am I feeling stress recently due to the coming exam and other ongoin events? NO, well, it's not the true answer, YES, it's not either, because there is no answers at all for that following the dumb question. All I would say is that I have everything under 'controls', by having a habit to watch at least two movies daily, chinese plus english. I guess that's the only entertainment I've got so far to get myself balance. Before the date of 26 April, I will distribute my daily work as this, first half of day - doing my project report, and the rest of time for revision. Bear in minds that guys, it's all entertainment time between them, so in conclusion, there will be just maximally, 3 hours of report time plus 2 hours of revision, daily, I guess that's already more than enough for what that should be covered, even a congenital genius will not say so, as we all know that, that's a liar, knowledge is uncontainable and unengulfable. Every single second there is new knowledge of respective areas being posted on, not extravagant to say so, even God can't take it all. So currently, as the insights, what I got is to do my "best", again it's a liar to assume 3 plus 2 package as the best? No way! So to be correct, it's 'to do what I am destinied to do', that is, everything takes off from my bosses - my heart and mind. I will only do what they tell me to, I will never ever betray them.

I got something on my mind just today, from Eason's new album - TIME FLIES, couples of songs reflecting the kinda positive thinking of life, I suppose. To have it short, it is roughly trying to bring several mesages that time flies, life is short, humanities, and of cause, loves, in which nothing will be better than it to be a promoting theme for an album. It's like this, hopefully this would acquire consensus, if it's not, that's all I can get based on my understanding, so no offense, nothing to be blamed of.

Life is short, from the day we were born to the moment we are buried to the ground, we are chasing after the time, why ' chasing', because it's not gonna stop no matter how we scream on them and it's passing too fast that we will never get them, but it's always like never go so far from us, feeling like just few steps ahead us as if we can get it because we see it moving slowly, to some extent, every day which make us capable of managing it.That is the fact, we cant get to time, but we're better than anything else to manage it and adjust our events in our to-do list. In fact, the songs never taught me new things, just acted as reminders to continuously awake me, stimulating my awareness for something which has been forgetten with time.

So, in this competing world, who's the winner and what's determining it? A intelligent leader? A remarkable engineer? A top scientist? Or a rich man? To be correct, it strongly depends on your own will, and most importantly, God's will, as the universe's creator, He is the one who let us aware of our existence, and HE is the only who has the right to abolish the hope, wealth, fate, everythin HE has on us. And, this is where, Humanity comes into picture. We should never forget who we are, and What we are, a human, homosapiens, we shouldn't have lost the characteristics of human , not even a single one. One clear example is that for years, we have got this, satisfaction of wealth that blinds us up. Forgeting about the one's health, one can do anything no matter what, just to become a millionaire, whatever it takes, even being involved in crimes. Obviously, people nowadays are losing their mind, they have forgotten how to spell humanity, dat's a shame of us. That fits the theme of a movie, I hv forgotten its name, but the actor was the main character of MATRIX and CONSTANTINE, I can't remember his name either and just feeling lethargic to google it for nw. The movie was about the losing humanity(Loss of a ability to become human), there was a punisher, I cant't remember it's the GOD or the Alien either. According to them, one of them was sent to earth to destroy the whole planet, where there is human, but not other species, fishes and other animals, they were kept in a fancy magic ball to be transported to a new planet. And that guy was saying that, whatever we do here, they are watching us, for the past bygone years, they had sent different levels of warning to alert us by the natural disaster - outbreak, tsunami, flood, earthquake and so on, in order to awake us from the blindness, but they were just given in vains. Finally, the whole planet was destroyed but human being which left behind as a pair of chidren, with different sex of cause, was transported to a new planet to start a entirely new population, together with other species. I think this message was similarly, sent by one of the movies acted by nicolas cage as well, again I don't remember the name of it. It doesn't really matter, does it? It's the message that the director wants to bring to us that matters.

For me, what do I think about life and what I gonna do with it? I will make it as simple as possible, live heathily and enjoy it with the Mrs Right I love and looks like I already got one, I will never want to change it, this is not a naive thinkin, this has been seriously put into a consideration - level 3, classified. Getting rich as in wealth is not the ideal subject anymore, the real quality of life is that, you really enjoy it with your eyes opened, understanding the way how life operates as a cycle, this is the real meaning of it. And to achieve this, 'culture' and 'science' are the best aiders and they play their pivotal roles in this, to be a successful enjoyer!

Nescafe is never ever a good stuff.....

2010-04-08T09:13:00.002+08:00

[7 April 2010; 8.09pm]Thought it was not too late to have a cup of nescafe as it would affect my sleeps, causing insomnia, just like last time, so i had it comfortably, without doubts.

[7 April 2010; 9.17pm]I was trying to finish up the section of my project's report by tonight as scheduled. I was combating with SPSS to sort things out, it wasn't too bad I guess.It is 3 more hours to go before reaching 12a.m

[7 April 2010; 11.23pm]Job was done. Needed to find way to gas out, so it was movie's time. 'GREEN ZONE' acted by Matt Damon - a war movie

[8 April 2010; 1.01am] Movies off, not really get impressed as his movies before. Feeling tired, guess it's time to squirm into my sleeping bag. Things started flashing through.

[8 April 2010; 2.01am]Eye lids up, Couldn't get into sleep. Never thought nescafe could be so strong, it is just unusual. Since i couldn't take a rest, why not have a go with my revision...

[8 April 2010;present time] Blogging, regretted the cup of nescafe, a valuable lesson ever. Will continue with my revision later on - food fermentation (an easy chapter seemed from the surface)

[8 April 2010;xxxxxxxx time] Pigging......

Next Schedule

2010-03-21T06:31:00.002+08:00

It has been long
guess I was overloaded
never mind, back here though
but it never ends
I gonna be very very packed
for this coming weeks
courseworks/ presentation/
preparation for exam......
like i said, it never ends
Not until the coming June
when everythin is over
exam, and all
thinkin to travel somewhere
that i wud never have a chance
to load on after this
Yes, that is a deal for myself
will do that soon!
Mum is coming on July
for attending my convo
though uncle was not available
hope she won't blame him much
and hope she can find someone to accompany her
I guess the mum of the son
just can't wait to attend her son's academic ceremony
for the first time, shame on them
hope that's not the last one
oh yeah currently i got something on my head around
it's to continue my master's degree in M'sia
but i m not really sure which uni is the best option
If not i will just continue it
in Nottingham's university
guess the course should be all right
I will try and get someone suitable
to get me the useful information
Hopefully it is not too late

Happy CNY & Valentine!

2010-01-28T06:13:00.003+08:00

What to say?Time flies.....
A blink of an eye, a flip of a page
One year has gone, it's 2010 this year
and being unconscious of the fact
I am 21-year-old guy already
Not too long from the future
I will be going out there
independently hunting for my job
Finding opportunity to make money
It's gonna be very challenging out there I suppose
I will find ways to go through it though

Two more weeks later
That will be CNY and my first valentine ever
I don't really interest in CNY this year
as i am not gonna be back to my sweet home
celebrating with my family and friends
That sounds sad but I remain no choices
Hope the latter one will compensate for the loss
I am sure it will
Guess what we are going to Edinburgh this time
We got to know from friends
that's a beautiful and magnificent old town
most of the hot spots are lying within the area
and it just looks tempting and attractive
looking from the pictures displayed
in the tourist guide and information
from the official website
Hopefully those are all real
and we will have it etched in our memory
for that very moment forever and ever
Sweet huh Yeah it is!
Don't ruin my plan please.....

All the best for your test!
Cheers all!

Being together.....

2010-01-24T05:19:00.003+08:00

Whatever things i gonna go through
sooner and later will be fine I suppose.
We are taking three modules this term
Advanced Molecular Biology
Industrial Biotech
Clinical Biochem
plus the never-ending project
Things are being more fun
as we are getting the idea
more and more in depth
hopefully we are
Everything is comin and endin so soon
no one ever doubts it apparently
few months later i will be back to my home land
really miss the whole picture of it
every single bits of it

And yes, it's almost a month since we got together
she is as nice as she was
dat's why i chose her undoubtedly
we are getting in days by days
It will persist for ages I am sure of
By the ways, all the best to your exam on this Fri

End of 2009: Sick but sweet (BLESS)

2010-01-03T07:55:00.004+08:00

To be frank, there wasn't any memorable bits worth to be recalled when i was stepping almost the edge of 09 except the haunting illness, it's just very much frustrating and annoying, making me bedridden all the time, being a useless tool for almost a week or more than that. I was first shocked by my own defense system, never I fell sick for a week, it was just unbelievable, but it's a fact now, I do accept it by admitting my weakness. Time has got nothing to do in this case but waking and boosting me up to confront the fact. People often say, it's because of the climate here, particularly this winter season, has severely lengthen patient's sufferring period, or perhaps, as a foreigner to be first stamping on this new land, I will take time to adapt myself to the new disease-causing germs here unlike those at my fatherland or Asia, the latter one is more reliable, so i will think about it. No worries. I do get better now, thanks to my very special person. Without you, I wouldn't have been better than days before, really appreciate that, thanks and love ya!

Meeting you would be the one and only thing worth it in 2009.
May our relationship lasts forever, God bless.

Losing you was the only unfortunate thing this year 2009. However, I wont see it as a loss in my life, instead i will revert it as a strength to be a more caring person illuminating myself, brighten up people around me especially my family.
May they happy always, God bless.

I know you will be always standing somewhere up there, far from us, peeping through to have a clear sight on us, blessing and supporting us for whatever we decide and do. I am certain about this.

Friendship Forever!

2009-12-14T06:07:00.002+08:00

I have been here in UK for almost three months
Nice surroundings, hospitable friends and lovely environment
I really like the place I stay, I always do
Days after days, I discover myself to be more talkative
less sensable and not organised at all,
Losing the control, I am indeed a crapper now
Really hope I can cease it from any points
Getting the strength from elsewhere
Or perhaps you guys here should do something
for the sake of me, yourself and others
I am crossing the line here man!
Stop pampering me please
I would appreciate your greatness if so happen that
you scold me, being a real friend of mine lol
Anyways great to have friends like you all
Hope to keep this PURE friendship till the end of the day
and keep in touch whatever go on in the future

I was chatting with my sister hours ago
Evil Edwinz just hit the belon
Helping his mum to win the lottery for about 20k
My whole family was celebrating when she got my call
And of cause Edwinz Teow, the monster was there
Telling me he is gonna go for a new season of his study
very very soon and will do as best as he can
and finally pursue his studies in UK like his uncle [me]
Ridiculous isn't he? lol cute one for a 3-year-old kid
Apparently, his mum was beside him teachin all that stuff
That's not the point anyways
I am sure he knows the meaning of what he said
and he better keeps his promise
or else I will hardly kick his little spongy ass
[8099] will mean a lot to us after all
Thank you my little charming nephew lol
Hopefully he will have a promising future
being a joyful happy-go-lucky
and stop being so mischievous please
Being a real trouble maker in our family God bless

Next i was chatting with a friend of mine via MSN
she was implying something for the current situation
the real situation of another friend of mine
which used to be a bosom friend
not a big difference for now i think, is facing
Again it was about his relationship with another gurl
who is also one of my friends
She is just not making any sense sometime
Stop scolding my friend will you
give some respect in which a real guy needs
You guys just have to be tolerant sometime
To avoid any conflicts which are not neccesary
To distance the gap days after days
I don't hope i will get any bad news from you
any of you, within the year i stay here
Hope you guys wil get better a real soon
sure you will
Think about how did u guys get along?
It was a striking story remember it?
I mean seriously, you guys had been going through
so much to eventually be together
Is it worth it? Think about it! it wasn't easy!
For me, you are still a perfect match my friends
Treasure whatever you have for moments
Cheers up!

Shitty insomnia! Keep away from me!

2009-12-10T09:13:00.003+08:00

What the heck is going on with me?
I couldn't squirm into my sleeping bag just now
No matter how hard I tried
My heart was pumping quicker than usually it does
Something were haunting me without explanable reasons
actually they can be explained but just a damn shame
Your voice is just all the way around my head
Leave me alone please before i die in hypertension
Guess i'm in real trouble this time
I never felt i am fragile as such

Anyways I am finally ended up here, blogging
hoping to get some release
Ridiculous isn't it, I seriously think so
It has never happened for decades
I mean Insomnia that i'm suffering from now
not even during the time my papa left me
It's unbelievable but it's true
This is insane and it doesn't make any sense at all

Perhaps I was right,
My mind and heart are like cats and dogs now
working and functioning against each other
leaving each other apart further and further
I feel that i no long know myself
Call it spirit shall I, or soul which has gone elsewhere
without a proper permission and notification
I just don't like this kind of mental trauma
Days after days, I am losing my rationale
To decide and do what is correct and what is false

But at least, for Christ's sake, my optimism still,
stays by side firmly which the one and only reason
explaining that i m still alive
it's murmuring to me
keep telling me to advance forward
and take things openly as part parcel of life
boosting me up to be myself
bouncing and motivating me to be courageous
I gotta keep saying to myself that i am unbeatable
For the bygones, for today and for the future

I was too wrong and naive if u wish
for thinkin myself ever be a tough man
I am just a tiny nut as if shrimp in a deep blue sea
I am just too vulnerable
allowing the external opportunistic factors
which really, are just ordinary rubbishes
to tie me up, leaving me immobile

Will call my pal tomorrow
to at least talk about it, and to share it
as it may help in bits meanwhile
not being irony for them
Plus it has been really long
that i didnt make them a call
which i should have done so
Hopefully she is fine

Between, i was thinking about something
while stretching myself
struggling to get myself into a dream just now
It was about what i gonna do next
after getting my honour degree here
Yes, I had made up my mind to get back
to where i originally from
As I was perplexing about life
I am still young, i've still got a plenty time ahead
a big chunks of opportunities await me
but not the elders around me
Their grey hairs are getting more more each day
In the way, their susceptibility to illness or death
are increasing days after days
i mean not to express this as a curse
but it's just happening
life is just too short for one to accomplish his responsibility
But you don't say it before you had tried your best
to at least do something on it
To fix the past to fix the gap
So I will get back once I've done my job here
BAck to the land i belong
the family that used to pamper me a lot
her chest which fairly filled up with love
the greatness on everything she gives to each of us

One year after, i will be right on your side
May you order and instruct me
Everything counts on one self
that's what I believe
environmental factors are just the seconders
under whatever situations and conditions

time to sleep, wish I can
listening to Eason's songs couldn't be making me
more comfortable
As it always does......
great!

Time, a useful remedy ever?

2009-12-09T00:51:00.002+08:00

For years living in this world
I am sure we all have been nicely exposed
to this phrase 'The passing time will sort it out"
whenever confronting something, a problem particularly
which someone are unable to troubleshoot and solve
And during this time, some might have this phrase
emerge on their mind and word it out
Some might not....

To put it in the context
I will use a relationship as an example
Love affair i mean
as nothing is more interesting than this
as far as i can tell

When you fall in love with someone
and not really sure whether or not dat guy loves you
You say 'Time will be a remedy'
and do nothing for it

When you dont love a person
but you know that person is in love with you
You say the same thing
and do nothing for it

When you are in love with someone
whom you think that he or she loves you as well
You say the same thing again
and do nothing for it

What the hell! This is not a part
of the human civilisation should be

Come on! Be a man!
Never I doubted that
Time is an excellent remedy for this
But it does only work if you do something for that
A pre-statements perhaps to at least let your target
clear on what are you thinking
And once it's done,
TIME will come into the picture
either implanting the seeds deep into the heart
or the other way round,
digging out the plant right from the main root

No offence guys...
Just wanna remind myself for this
So that I can always control myself in such a manner
and cheers if you find them useful

Using time as a remedy as an excuse
in order to hide from the truth
is always inappropriate

Eason the best!

2009-12-02T17:40:00.006+08:00

讓理智在叫著冷靜冷靜還恃住年少氣盛

讓我對著衝動背著宿命渾忘自己的姓

沉睡的凶猛在蘇醒完全為你現形

這個世界最壞罪名叫太易動情但我喜歡這罪名

驚天動地只可惜天地亦無情

不敢有風不敢有聲這愛情無人證

飛天遁地貪一刻的樂極忘形

好想說謊不眨眼睛這愛情無人性

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若世界陷進大騙局裡面朋友亦難以發現

共你隔著空在秘密通電挑戰道德底線

如若早三五年相見何來內心交戰

我信與你繼續亂纏難再有發展但我想跟你亂纏

驚天動地只可惜天地亦無情

不敢有風不敢有聲這愛情無人證

飛天遁地貪一刻的樂極忘形

好想說謊不眨眼睛似進入無人境

即使間整個約會情調幽暗似地下城

還是算溫馨多麼想跟你散步橋上把臂看著風景

但是我清醒月亮總不肯照亮情慾深處那道背影

你我像快快樂樂同遊在異境浪漫到一起惹絕症

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不想說明只想反應

Listen up!
Eason's new song will be officially published soon
End of December this year I guess

Not really liked it when I first listened to it
But days after days, I found myself in love with it
Simply because of his haunting voice i believe
And the lyrics is great

It seems that for his recent songs
Eason is no longer singing solely for his technique presentation like before
but to present a whole story, picture and perhaps induce an imagination
of the songs to all his fans
thus creating a space for idol-fans communication
buying time for us to understand him and his songs
Great!!
Keep rocking!!

Sharing, a release?

2009-11-30T06:47:00.003+08:00

Holy shit! I am really not in study mood lately
not even wanna flip pages of at least one
not at all, it's bad i realise that
But I just couldn't God save me from that
Flee me perhaps from the haunting lethargy
It should be done dealing with me
Anyways i will get better soon I guess

I was gossipping like a fortieth aunties few days ago
With some friends here at starbuck for the first time
But I didn't really enjoy the conversation
Cause I was like a host as well as the one and only guest there
I prefer talking to the walls than that lol
Don't bother, just wanna spend some time out there
rather than self-locking in the room
Why cant I just get a mamak or kopitiam here?
We can talk till the sunrise of the next day
with the cheap milk tea or perhaps chinese tea
Miss the days we were out for gossiping a lot guys

The second gossip took place in my room
We chatted until 4 o'clock morning
Amazing and unbelievable huh?
I have the same thought too
What to say, time flies lol
We exchanged our pasts
For the effort to have our background understood
But it would never happen
as people just like to keep privacies
which they think it is unrivalled and unsharable
This is normal ......

At this ages, we just like to talk about the boys and gurls stuff
Lovely isn't it? So be it, we shared those stuff
Flirting, first love, puppy-love and so on
I seriously think that it's a good thing
because by sharing, you dig into your mind for the memory
seeking, recalling, processing, enjoying
The feeling when the memorable nostagia flash back into your mind
is irresistable, makes me good
especially one who ever lived in fascinating life like me

I find myself in love with sharing
but it's in uhm confined way, not thoroughly
Cause it's just something
something which is a great shame to share about
Damn it! Why me!

Perhaps HE loves me more than any others else
HE always wants me to experience more
Exposes me to the stress and bad scenes
So that i would take it as a lesson
Learn and get something useful from them
Reflecting all those unpleasant stuffs
by processing an issue from numerous perspectives
That's what make a real me today
To be more mature, optimistic perhaps
To think about things deeply into layers
Thank you Mr. GOD! Appreciate it!
I am unbeaten after all

Distance a better explanation of a relationship

2009-11-25T04:01:00.002+08:00

It has been a nature
where human live in
The farther you are away from a thing
The more intense you will miss it
that explains the reason why recently
i find myself frequently poping in and out on FB
since that's one of the media I can use
to keep in touch with my lovely friends
and at least to keep some memorable nostalgia
plus the 'jerk' recent uploaded photos
when we were young- primary school
it has got nth to say about
MISS THOSE DAYS A LOT
really wish i could travel back to the past
so do you, don't you?
So u see, how distance plays its vital role here
It links a friendship up
It matches a couple up
It closes a family up
and It unites a nation up

I cant recall when was the last time
I was actually making friends
Cause we seem to know more and more people
days after days without a consciousness
This is normal as in denoting a friendly person
Yes you are right
I am praising myself here
Don't you agreeeee?
I am sure most of ya would give the green light lol
This is how distance plays its role in friendship
It cuts off the intangible distance between hearts
of two person who initially didn't know each other
until they become plain friend
upgrade to best friend afterwards by chance
or probably couple if the lines do overlay in the proper way
at the right environment
at the right time
at the right place

I have witnessed most of the cases happened
The switch of relationship between pairs
developed from plain friend, erm...acceptable
developed from best friend, hmmm...predictable
even, developed from cat and dog,
sort of strange but indeed, it's in high chance
Everything is fated to happen for God's sake

So, to all my dearest friends, sisters and brothers
Whenever there is a chance for ya to leap off the gap
especially to kickstart an affair
just face and accept it
worry about how long it gonna sustain?
whether it's gonna be a forever or short affair?
will it be as the last short-term ex-puppy-affair?
you wont know until you own it
and inject in whatever neccessary to sustain the relationship
In the process, you feel the joy and enjoy it
This is simply a true & pure love......
Not to say from a perspective of a flirty guy
you dont shoulder any resposibilities up in an affair
unless accidentally or with deliberation
you create a new born life or get married

So just enjoy the process
for wooing and being wooed
Being emotional is just not a great idea
to grab another fortune of life
Life moves on my friend
Dont keep looking back
Not everything is awful and awkward
as what you had undergone
Let bygones be begones
There is still another bright lamp
for you to pull and switch on
brightening him or her
brightening yourself
It's on your hand

Be brave and be blessed

Intangible Role

2009-11-23T00:48:00.005+08:00

Believe it or not we just have a single role to play in
From time to time, stages to stages, youngs to elders
It could be an enormous difference crossing the intervals
If you see yourself through at the end of the day
Indeed it's like a 2-hour movie, a sudden characteristic leap
Could just happen within seconds
confronting an unforeseen circumstance, a situation
Movie, it does reflect how things go on in the real world

As for the role we played, playin or will play
I would direct it to responsibility shall I
Time, apparently precious than anything else in the universe
It's so as it doesnt travel back
Regardless of your age, life moves on as a cycle
we've all got different responsibilities
Depending on which part of the cycle you are currently positioned
A student? A child? A boss? A dad? A leader? A follower, etc......
It's just very much different from each other
yet, it's all your choice, you chose it, and you gona face the music
That's exactly how a responsible person presents himself
Success or failure. it's just lying between your fingers
If you have your responsibility thoroughly attained
and managed to find the way presenting it
You gonna hv everythin more than a success

I am a Bsc student,
a son of a mother,
a brother of siblings,
a grandson of grandparents

With all kind of responsibilites
Everyday I ask myself 'Have I partially done any?'
It doesnt proceed other than just a question
a question I ask everyday
an answer I seek everyday

Note to share nextime ----D-I-S-T-A-N-C-E

Love no other, but yourself!

2009-11-09T07:48:00.004+08:00

Each of us has got different insight on certain things, thus causing conflict and crisis. But if it does manage to be suppressed, nothing would occur but peace. Unfortunately, it's not gona happen unless someone find himself a way to step on the stage of the world and declare his idea of genetical unity in human species, with a proper reason of cause. Guess what, we all will have same behaviour, voice and everything else, even look due to the 100% similarity in genetic composition. Then, there is high chance that crisis would be brought to a halt, no wars, no fighting, no nothing as we all have got consensus on everything. Yet this makes no sense! You don't want me to explain that!

Back in here using human language, so in order to minimise whatever mayhem or havoc to happen, always, we need to tolerate and try our best to think from others' perspectives or point of view.......I'm good in talking shit, but never good in having it as a practice even how hard i try, perhaps the uh, self-esteem just appears itself as dominant gene rather than the capability of tolerating. It recessively hides somewhere deep beneath the genetic codes all the time lol ........ We gotta respect the human rights to think, speak up and behave the way others like without overcrossing the legislative laws. So I think i'm doin better in this aspect and YOU DON'T HAVE RIGHT TO STOP ME CRAPPING HERE

Everyone seems to have his or her vex all the time, a major one, a minor one, depends on how you take it, even a psycho has his own vex, to break out from the place he's locked. It's life, isn't it? This is how you spell it! What I think is that, getting through or moving on life itself is the problem, challenges emerge days after days, not to mention the stony and spiky walkways ahead. Since we are well notified about this, why not we let out heart down, throwing aside the negativities instead of worryin stuff and being sad for reasons that it shouldn't be? Rather than spending time on sorrow and anxiety, why not just be easy and fill up your gut with joy, working out something to get yourself prepared and ready for tomorrow[s]? It's not neccesary to be a bad day tomorrow, it might be a wonderful day instead, always remind yourself life is adventurous and fulled of surprises. You might be a 1 million winner, meeting up your life partner, a faithful friend, a kind employer, being promoted, having a pair of twins, etc tomorrow, nobody knows.

The message i wanna deliver here is that day comes after day, even you encounter something nasty today, you still need to wake up, stretching your eyes muscle for tomorrow's sunlight. This has been the routine and it's not gonna stop until you would never feel it one day facing your mortality.

SO JUST ACCEPT THE COMINGS and I beg you here, please
NO MATTER WHAT, KEEP THE UNHAPINESS THAT HAPPENING BEFORE AWAY

Love yourself!

TO ALL MY DEAREST GROUP OF FRIENDS......

An imaginary project

2009-10-07T03:53:00.002+08:00

There was a project meeting among the students with the module leader, Dr. Keith attempting to work out for the project titles for each of us. Indeed, we are moving forward quite rapidly and i would suppose by next week or a week after next, we will be officially beginning our final-year project under a supervision of each assigned tutors. And, if there is no other circumstances being poped out, Dr. Anne who is the leader of biomedical science will be scouting me throughout the academic year as the project will be carried out consecutively for two terms. Hopefully she would possess a serial quality of tolerance, forgiveness and helpfulness to aid me in this subject which I will also, for my own good, take it very seriously. Oh yeah, I have her words because as far as I can recall she did make a promise to all of the biotech students during our very first lesson that she would try her best endeavoring to academically give us a hand. For your information, she is actually one of the lecturers of mine, teaching me Immunology which had something to talk with my previous post. May everything ahead goes smoothly......

Conquering Immunology

2009-10-02T23:13:00.002+08:00

It's comin to the end of the week very soon which is the 2nd week of mine stepping on this land. Of cause, I'm being more adaptive than how I was when I first got here. Usual, isn't it? People keep moving on towards aims, until it's attained, I bet everybody realizes that.

In fact, I would like to share the hardest part of the moment throughout the 2-week long period here. And I'm sure you guys have gotten the guess right, it was about the lesson, not running out of the subject, IMMUNOLOGY.

To be frank, personally, i think that biotechnology, which is a general field underlying a combination of related disciplines - genetics, biochemistry, microbiology and so forth have nothing to do with immune system, unless, you are specifically going after the branches or the sided area of it including medical, agriculture, clinical, food and bla bla which i believe every biotechnologist would always bring along lip, and yes, I had made a choice too, at time to leg in MEDICAL biotechnology as it always shines brightly for me, hope I would grab some fortune there.

I do realize that READING is so much important to achieve any, yet, no promises will be bestowed as I just couldn't, do my best will be it!

Back to the lesson, I just found it hard to keep my ear and mind switched on and pelmeable for everythin to go in, digest it, cuz I'm seriously in shortage of KNOWLEDGE, in other words, reading, I admit it.

Gosh! After pulling the trigger releasing all the stress, I think it's time, it's time to get things right, to put myself on the path towards......

Time to STUDY! Hey go.......

Welcome to Sunderland

2009-09-26T02:27:00.008+08:00

I have been stayin on this new yet hospitable land for almost a week.
How do I do here? Everything's all right? Asking for more?
One I would say that, I am ok and everything couldn't better here
Thanks to the way God has always gifted me on how I behold stuff
Thankful and grateful I feel here.
Time would give me the green light to adjust to the land's accent soon
Let's look at the environment here!

specular view out of window

Winter is coming

Just hope that I will get used to the weather here

Gonna start a totally refreshing classes here soon

All the best to me

Crossing my fingers over.......

Hopefully the assignments, reports blah blah

afterwards will be acceptable......

My gratitude spills.....

2009-09-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

It has been hundred days he left us
nothing could be more fresh
few days after he went for his holy vacation
everyone would squeeze his or her heart into juices
right after receiving the news
but time, as it always does,
an effectively useful remedy ever
has the power to shorten the 'transition' period
bringing us, altogether back to normal
and apparently, it does show!
The sorrowness was lessen
Feeling comforted to say so
As a Chinese, the rituals are unavoidable
And they were going smooth
except i did a minor mistake
which was made as a joke by others
I am alright as long as they took it
as it supposed to be - in a normal way

Thanks...
I am proud of being son of you, i always will
besides living with the strength you give me
I respect everything you had done
And will partially take them as lessons
that I think whichsoever necessary

Thanks..
For supporting me always
I know you believed in me and well
that was why I am now today
I feel I was pampered in the correct way
under your lead
You were the one who built the tank
to fill the confidence into
talents, skills, thoughts, etc

I will walk through my path
for the rest of my life
without you...
This is not gonna be a problem
and, of cause, this is not a blaming fire
COme on..you know better than myself
I am an independent guy! lolx
So no worries!!!

2 more weeks to go

2009-09-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

I've been so numb lately
My power of sensation is dropping steeply
And I found out that I'm gettin my memory blurry
without reasons, in other words,
I'm getting more FORGETFUL than the former time
It could be a good thing though,
so I don't really bother it, taking it as part of my business

It's coming very soon that I gonna leave my country
two more weeks to go roughly
Like I said, I am not being sensitive to the surrounding recently
so, similarly, I don't mentally prepare myself much for that day
That's what I believe and insist.....
If you hold the goal tightly until the day it's realized
You will not take a step back instead,
you will do whatever necessary by hook or by crook to make it happen
This is what and how life means......
So, there is absolutely nothing to be afraid of......

Good luck and All the best!!!!

Only for you Eason....

2009-08-17T00:07:00.003+08:00

Guess what guys, i just came back from Eason's concert at Sunway Lagoon Surf Beach, it wasn't packed like expected as my distance towards him, my super idol was just like say, few meters away, it was a good thing anyways, just kinda felt bad for those who had brought the tickets with higher price, this is sarcastic, isn't this? lol..... I intend to build up some words here right after it cause i wanna keep this memory etched into my nerve forever ever as everything happenning there is still fresh and intact on my mind at moment, so get ready, I gonna discharge all of them now......

First and foremost, the traffic along the way I came and left was considerably acceptable, cause I, uhm really that kind of person who can't survive trapping in the jam, it does draw me in insanity whenever there is a massive jam, so I really think that KL is not a cozy place to dwell in cause you all know that it is so much rampant happening here. SIGHZZZZZZZZ......forget about it, let's return the main topic - Eason! sol! You are the most remarkable singer ever!!!!!

The concert was really an unforgettable one, i was really enjoyed listening to his songs. I would swear to God that if you are not his fans, and you happen to attend the concert, you will make him as your idol in the nutshell. I am not lying, exaggerating and all, but believe me, it is true! And, da..he is kind of a guy with sense of humour i would say that cause apparently, he did it to spare us from boredom when he was talking or sending his appreciation. Ooh yea, this reminds me that the appreciation-sending time was kinda longer as usual as he claimed that this gonna be his last Moving-on Stage concert which was the 26th show after having them throughout the world. So we did not blame him at all, even if he gonna speak up for hours up there, I swear to God the audiences would not say nothing as back to it, his homour did entertain us for real, his voice was so much catchy and attractive, i think it was to do with his slang, whatever it is, keep up the good work! All the best for ya! You really have a profound impact on me....

AND You do make HK proud! As far as I can recall, I wasn't that desperate when I saw you performing on the stage, even if I did, I could do nothing to express it, shoot up to embrace you? hug you? no no, this's a nut's style, not mine. lol.. instead, I rather stood straight on the ground to enjoy myself surrounded by my idol's unrivaled throat, my God, it was just wordless to describe it, it was the best live performance ever, again, i would like to emphaize here, trust me! he is a talented singer ever, you won't have any idea how good he is if you did not join it......

The highlighted songs presented on the night......

。。。。。。
七百年后
沙龙
还有什么可以送给你
路一直都在
淘汰
浮夸
夕阳无限好
富士山下
单车
明年今日
天下无双
与我常在
爱是怀疑
。。。。。。

YOU ARE THE BEST!

gRaciAs

2009-08-15T04:17:00.004+08:00

My mind is far away from the top of my body recently, it's kinda hard to explain if you wanna know the reasons, but I suppose it is to do with my going-to-be leave, I am not so sure, yet one thing for real is that I have started scheduling up my time table now, right after the day I finish the course here which is going to be less than ten days ahead. Between, most of the activities that I had planned were actually to have a meet-up with my buddies, who are from the nation throughout. Gotta keep the relationship well as that is the only valuable item I treasure so far besides my family.

Gotta pass them a huge, sincere and unrivaled thank-you appreciation for everything especially for dwindling my pressure by allowing me to talk nonsenses towards them. You guys are sweet, without your existence coming across my life, I would not be able to grab the chance to have my life coloured. Without your willing-to-hear ears, things would not be that easy for me, I would like to send my deepest gratitude to them......it's my fortunate to have you all stood by my side whenever the unwelcome circumstances emerge.....

Really looking forward to meeting you......

Single Singlie - belief on my hand

2009-07-31T20:31:00.004+08:00

I, hereby, to the creatures under the Sun
declare to be a totally single pure man!
Forget about stuff before
we used to flirt or even, itemize each other
To my adorable A to Z.. we are friends forever-ever!

I should be a single for a-decade long time
as I shouldn't be awarded, not yet for now!
This isn't a curse! Be clear about it!
Just, I think I'm not ready yet
But if so happen I gonna meet one,
forget about whatever I mention above

Wonder why I have such thought
To be alone, lonely loner?
[ All right reserved ; ICE AGES 3]
Sorry, I can't tell cause frankly,
me, myself is in trouble finding the truth also
But I think it's profoundly to do with my characteristics
It has to be! So assume it's right...
The assumption would be.......

Do I think in different way?
Yes I do...complicated, weird, troublesome, name it!

Do I have an exceptionally high requirement?
Yes I do...good-lookin, slim, fair, intelligient, say it!

Do I, myself in trouble?
Yes I do...all the way, all the time!

Due to lethagy and sleepiness
It's To be continued.......

The power of positive thinking

2009-07-25T20:41:00.005+08:00

It has been seven weeks since the last time I left, things around still seem not to be so good, it would torture one to death somehow. I could timely sense the grief, stress, sorrow and any other negativities. I know all of these would unavoidably go for months or even years which nobody can change it, if it continues the way it does now, i am sure worser picture will emerge in the coming days I swear to God and eventually everything and everyone will get the passive and resistant impacts. I think for now, I know why the director of the film ' The Day When The Earth Stood Still' had the idea to have his film published. I used to think it was a moronic movie ever, but now, it kinda makes sense, human beings are too weak from all perspectives, mainly twisted and fooled by their emotions. There is nothing that I could think of for a 20-year-old 'boy' (if you prefer to call me that, frankly I am not really feeling cozy for that) to do confronting the spiky and thorny currents, this is unusual and totally not ordinary as far as I could tell. I know I am facing a severe imbalance for my mental thoughts which is a fact, but take note of that, a patient especially a psychopath usually doesn't compare himself with others who are normal as they think they are, so I dare to assure you that I am a 100% normal guy living in pink and for the case of my mental problems, i think I've got a self-producing remedy to take care of it. I was once having a negative thought to give up the family i owned, it's just too hectic to ones couldn't imagine to play a role of it, now it flows through my nerves again, so should I? I am just helpless and tiny to have every problem solved which is not gonna happen, how jealous am I to those who have simple and easy family. Please pals, do me a favour I do not expect any feedbacks for this post,i just deliver what i think it's necessary to make myself better. Like I always do, I am okay, to all my adorable buddies, I've learned to take better care of myself and to solve the problem the way it supposed to be. I'll only do whatever I think it's right, but to be honest, i'm indeed in despair with family, right now, I'll only take a responsibility selectively other than those supposingly. You know better than what I mean! I can't do much thing except for finishin my studies as you wished. Do stay by my side and please, give your best shot to everyone whom you left without warning. Do whatever you can to dwindle her pressure and most importantly, her misses to you to make her life better. Rest in peace after then....God bless

What a World!!

2009-07-11T10:04:00.002+08:00

Jz realized that it has been long
since last time I pencilled here
It was decades ago....isn't it?
See I deserve the forgiveness from anybody
At least still, after so long
I am trying my best
to make myself being exaggerative
goaled to make my blog fascinating & exhilarating
Sorry then if it doesnt sound
since I am being myself
I've reached
stamping on the base
of my sense of humour
shameful to declare that

Alright, there are actually few things
that had impressed me both the ways lately
They did it to draw my attention deeply
Cause normally, things I notice around
will just flow thorugh my nerves for seconds
and get vanished right the way
which is also in second-counted
However, they were unusual, so different
that had profoundly grabbed my glances

It was last week, I saw a pedestrian
A 30 plus plus Indonesian I guess
on my way to go for dinner
I was alone, dizzy half-way and partially druggy
as I just emptied a bottle of coughing syrup
I remember both sides of us were not vivid
to differentiate who was the passer-by
because, me too, did stamp on the walkway aside
for moment, just to give them a shot
And, I was the stunning one, that made
me to wipe my existence away
on this twentieth century
Again now, am I?
It was just scarely to be believed
Almost went against the normality
For this species on earth
that it supposed to be

It was the mum herself with her son
Again I suppose and a mini rectangular,
blanket-like 'sack' on her front
They were tornly dressed up
the spiky covers would make anyone
suffered and moaned in pain
She was blindly directing a cart, spilled with dumps
mostly papermade stuff as hard as I could notice
to wherever she could collect her thingumajig
The family, inherited from the past,
was with dark skin, both of them
that made me to become unclear
about the portion of splattered dirts
and splashing ashes on their faces and cover-ups
the picture was indeed difficult to be washed away
not just for me who has no difference in
my emotional status with others

After few miles away from my sight
I was about to be far-off the widow
All of the sudden it was a baby-cryin sound
from elsewhere, it was my final glance
And it didn't out of my expectation
it was her baby which was the 'sack' she shouldered up

The notable 'balance'

2009-06-27T20:36:00.006+08:00

BALANCE

As you can see it at the top of the surface
It can be used to weigh
Helping you out to get the final weight
Weight of an item?
Does it mean the value itself?
An item? A thing?

Or a human?

BALANCE

It can sometimes show negative value
But it's rare to the extent that
A person under the sun
wasn't awed by the

50-year-old
King of Pop, MJ's absence

For those who seldom come contact with it
Do you realize that it does show
negative values in fact? No?
As it shows possitive attribute most of the time?
Or it has been covered up by it all the time?

With that,
I've got bits to share here,

The tale then begins out of the front screen......

BALANCE,
See it through our lives.....

As a 20-year-old guy
Not matured enough
Not too maiden either I would say that

I see babies being delivered
Grey hairs leaving us
In my family itself

Even the ones who was ever so close to me

that you couldn't imagine and lift up your yardstick

Which has been a routine
Being a cycle of life, that I took it as

To tune our human population back to normal

In other words, to make it balance

We just need to endure for a short period

Hold the suffocation which is not gonna last long

As time as the naturally essential remedy
After settling down, we've just got to
Draw our totally new refreshing breath
Continue treasuring the moments ahead
Continue loving people surrounding us
This is the way how to live out a life with quality

Out of the the DEATH and BIRTH

COMPARISON,

unavoidably always exists as a challenge
To gear up human civilisation
To make world better

You think you are the best,
Due to your self-obsessing egotism
which is not right
In fact, there is always someone
out there who is better than you
Just, he or she doesn't say a word
As for God's sake, they have got an instinct
to never stop learning from others
from the surrounding
Therefore, you are just too small, tiny
as if shrimps that never,
no one wanna mention it

We all have got negativities in our souls
in the sense of behaviours, performance
and many more
But it won't stay until the day we turn ashes
If we are willing to put on effort
To completely eradicate them from roots
We will virtually not stay alive in remorse

Back to the balance that mentioned earlier
It has always got positive and negative
In which they depend on each other
in order to obtain intermediate value

So, BE WISE!

If you think you are positively-side oriented
Don't ever try to look down or even worse,
ridicule or mock others whom you think
they are dopes, who are not.

In contrast
If you think you are negatively-side oriented
It's time to turn into a new leaf
Get along with others who are willing to teach
By hook or crook
Remember! Nobody can help you
If you are not doing yourself any favour

Tolerance is the key
to smoothen your learning pathway....

Bear this in mind!!!

A reboot

2009-06-21T10:03:00.005+08:00

Not really sure which creature put this into my laptop

Gonna miss you guys soon!

Everything is set

I am leaving in the coming Sep

To a absolutely strange environment

To further my study there

Hopefully my decision was wise enough

I was a lone ranger when the first time

I left my home for my study

It was the farthest I stayed from my home

Which was 2 years ago

But not this time, we are going together

6 musketeers are boated together now

Will we make a difference?

It's still an unknown behind the cloth

It's uhmm, still 3 months ahead

to be mentally ready for it

Like I always do

power of imagination and reckoning
would do me a huge favour

supposing what gonna happen to me there

Before signing off

I would like to congratulate & wish

those who had gotten their university offer
May everythin go smooth and do good....

All the best!

it never stops

2009-06-15T21:29:00.002+08:00

Back to the tedious work!
But with even-worse poverty this time
So sad
As usual, I gotta save my money
yet with greater amount
based on my current situation
Too bad
I wonder who claimed that
The global economic crisis has come to a halt
Meanwhile a 20-year-old guy
is suffering here on his own land
It doesn't make sense
Anyways, like I said before
Life is unpredictable
Who knows that
I might be the lottery winner for coming days
4 to 5 consecutive days perhaps lol
Actually, a single day, a single shock will do
Thank God, it's coming to my turn, isn't it?
Hey man, I am going to uk soon
please pour me some credit....

Nothing to be shared in fact,
Just pass by to leave some shits here lol
See you around!

Rest in peace

2009-06-09T18:17:00.003+08:00

You are the greatest man I ever had
with almost nothing in hand
but a crystalline & pure heart
you did it to bring four of us up

Never we ever had the chance
as a child to do our parts
to pay our gratitude
not before you left us

We are proud to be your sons and daughter
For everything you'd done on everyone around us
Your sincerity, honesty, mercy and sympathy piped out
would undoubtedly etch in our memory
until the end of our days
the day we're buried to the ground

You've been living in dilemma throughout your life
Yet you let us know nothing about it
As you were great
Never you had the intention to tell us
share with us
not to make us see your vex

Days by days, i'm getting further
from the walkway you used to stand on
Cause I only had the opportunity
to know you better till few days ago
during the funeral
I was notified about your good
by few relatives who had been so close to you
shameful to say that
I didn't even know who they were
I had totally no idea
for what you'd done out there
after sitting at this babyseat for long

Rest in peace, dear
You will always in my heart
as you are my guardian angel now
I am sure you will always by my side

Like I promised before
I will do my best
to realize your hope from now on
things you'd told me
thinking i guess you had in mind

But first and foremost
You got to save them
both of them
hopefully they would wake up
after your lost

stunning unwelcome news

2009-06-05T12:36:00.003+08:00

4 June 2009 was the day he left us, all of us,
without residuing any marks pointers..
it happened all in the sudden..
I was too naive to make a lot of stories once i got the call,
if he didnt smoke, if he didnt have to work hard, if i was together wif him, etc....
it was all nonsenses, it already happened, i just couldn't accept it, it came in flash..
i am getting better now though,
i know everything happens on me is just a routine of life and it's a cycle
as millions of babies born each day as well as the oldies who passed away,
i've got no differences with others..
so i will try my best to comfort myself,
get my family back to reunioned heart and of sure,
endeavour to realize every single nick of dream he has on me...
You are the best

SHAH ALAM, a heaven

2009-06-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

Sorry for late update
I've been lockin myself at Shah Alam
for weeks, no sports, no gurls, nothing!
Can you imagine that!
So treasure whatever you have
whoever you are now

*^#specifically for those who are at Nilai*&%

Gotta busy now
See Ya
Take good care, my buddies
All the best to those gonna enter U soon!

I'd buried myself in the deep black hole

2009-05-26T20:27:00.002+08:00

I can't still eradicate her from my mind
which I thought I did
Put the blame on me!
It's my nature! I am just too emotional sometime
when I am dealing thing
It reveals my weakness
which I can't make it right
until the end of the day I believe

I'd tried! But it's just difficult to get rid of something!
Especially you have it in mind all the time
as you get in touch with it

I know I should always wish her the best
by not interfering into the affair
which I never ever have that bloody intention
instead most of time i find millions of excuses
to compel to ensure it's not gonna happen between us

It's hard! HARD!
& IT'S JUST HARD!!

Any better idea>??????
Advise me before I get lost.......

Time flies....

2009-05-10T16:19:00.003+08:00

I was just back from Langkawi island
Nothing more i could think to comment
but for real, i was spending like hell there
yet without any awareness
as i don't really like drink like those
who must have made the island as their heaven
And i don't smoke also

I have more or less a week left for my break
Gotta really maximize the fun or entertain myself
within this period of time before i get regretted

As planned, I'll be going to Shah Alam
after my new rented home on Wed
If everything is fine, it will be a place
where i gonna dwell for 3 months - a sem long

As what had been literally marked in the contract
I will be workin from Mon to Fri, 8am to 5pm
for coming months, I really can't wait for that

Hopefully i will gain things there
And i am hoping if i can get a part-time job
while having my practical
It does help to kill 2 birds with 1 stone
as not only i can flee myself from the weekend boredom
but to get an extra income
Okie, i'll think about that seriously......

See ya!!

Let it be!!

2009-05-04T15:50:00.004+08:00

I'm doing really good here
Like she said, I'm being pampered here
Yes indeed, I confess.....
There's always an advantage as such
for being the youngest son
Education, sport, and all sort of flexibilities
are given sparingly
A great gratitude to my parents
Who created me
Who help to form my personality
Who encourage me to learn new stuff
Who had brought me to who am I today..

Yea, I am babysat by my family
but not out of it I would say that
I have worked everything out
by striving myself toward the triumph
So, basically I am doing my best with
their moral and financial support
i have no regret to everyone all in all
I will, with no doubt keeping it up
for the sake of my future and
Of cause, my love one....

[IGNORE THIS GUYS!!!]
[THIS IS JUST A REMINDER OF MINE]

We are just FRIEND!
FRIEND! FRIEND! FRIEND!

Don't think about the nonsense
Focus on your study!!

Mind your virtue! Mr. Teow
Possess thing which is belonged
to somebody else is a SIN!!!!!

You won't be blessed & sweet
even though you happen to be together
So just.....LET IT GO....

Whenever you think about it
just remind yourself..

This is just a transition state.

[THE END]

Enjoy your Langkawi trip tomorrow!
God bless.... with a wonderful weather.....

I am HOME!

2009-05-01T15:15:00.002+08:00

I am finally HOME after so long
Everything still remains unchanged here

Mum's still my mum

Dad's still my dad

My dogs are still barking crazily

as usual at seven in the morning

My bedroom is still like a store
which makes me to suffocate always

The most annoying thing is that

Most of my friends are still working

which I couldn't meet them up altogether

Irritating!!!

Anyway, I understand it

Money comes first
So 'Happy Working Days' for 'em

I am glad to hear that my brother's dog
- SHiro (a German retriever) is pregnant
Can't wait to give the puppies a hug!!

As I am going for practical next semester,
I gotta finalize whatever details given by my coordinator
while looking for information relevant to it
with a hope to ease the job afterwards

Other than that, there will be just gathering,
gathering and gathering i guess lol

See ya!!
Keep in touch for those from NILAI...

Gonna be there soon! very very soon!

2009-04-27T12:20:00.005+08:00

Everything was simple and straightforward. I had spoken to the tender who looks after a vacant room in Shah Alam this morning. It was 9 a.m! Hopefully the time was mutually convenient for each other, most importantly, I hope that I didn't wake him up from his bed. Sorry for that, Dear Mr. Mohan, if I happened to get you annoyed, I didn't mean it.

I was told that it's $275 per room which I need to pay monthly, on top of it, I need to give the house owner such amount of deposit which is refundable. I will be stayin there on 16 May onwards that's what I had promised to him and be leaving on either the end of August or the beginning of September which is right after I fulfill my practical there. Regarding this, I have to check unequivocally with my coordinator as it's crucial to be saving my one-month renting fee.

I will only go and have a look at it on 13 May cuz I won't be around here right after my exam( 30 April) which he had agreed with that as well. Gotta really go back and have a real and thorough look on my family members, my buddies, every single piece of lands of my hometown, etc.... cuz the chance is just tiny to have spent my moment there, more come to worst if I stick to my plan to pursue my degree in UK. It gonna be a long long period from the last time I ever step on my land.

Sometimes, i'm criticized by my friends that I am too emotional in some aspects. I am not gonna say NO for it cuz partially I am, not gonna admit it blindly either cuz you can only see me be drunk in the EMO state for certain particular reason, I am a kinda tough guy I would say so as far as I understand the real ME. In fact, I don't think there is any doubt from a person for being emotional as long as he doesn't lose his logical thinking, it's not, to an extent, extravagant to utter that this factor is actually contributing to the person to be a successful guy in the future, cuz believe it or not, this is the way, this is how he is trained to be a caring and sensitive employee or even, employer if he or she happens to be. Also, look at it from different angle, being emotional is chiefly a characteristic to differentiate us from other creatures or to remain our positions as a so-called high-level organism.

So, there's no harm at all to be an emotional person, that's the message I wanna bring or share here. Good day!

Thanks Jass for building the path for me to the tender and her adorable cousin's aid as well.
I really appreciate it! May God bless them for the rest of days....

4 days more....

2009-04-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

Two more tests are getting close
Yet, I am still on SILENCE mode
no mood to revise whatever relevant

COM161 - 29 April ( cw mark - 48)
BBL140 - 30 April ( cw mark - 57)

Perhaps I need more inspiration
From somebody I really respect
Who really deserves it

I gotta study hard for 'em
As this is my final semester
Sitting for exam here
So, it's my responsibility
to treasure the every moment here

the moment I enter the exam hall
the freezingly cold PH air-con
the moment I rush to have my paper done
and so on, it's a long story
I know I gonna miss them

4 days left and I will be home
Can't wait to meet you guys there!

It's too long!!!

2009-04-25T22:31:00.003+08:00

I have been lying on the bed of laziness recently
I did do my revision for two coming papers next week
But it wasn't which I spent most of my time on
Embarrassing to say so, instead, it was GAMING!!

It wasn't any new games but DOTA!
The traditional and typical game ever!
Like previous semesters, it makes no difference
I am addicted to it I would say so
It somehow, even makes me to think that
Exam week is actually the holy period
When my gaming skill GETS IMPROVED! LOL
GODLIKE!!!!!

Anyways, don't think that I am
A GAME-SUCKER like others
Plus the game is factually not much special
compared to others

It's just one of my ways to relax and overcome
The exam pressure to get myself less tense
The revision is of cause, on schedule
Just, I am takin and doin it slowly
Which I pretty much certain that
It won't result in any mayhem
for my exam

Again! It's gaming time!!!!

Exam week.....

2009-04-20T14:52:00.004+08:00

Just finished a paper - statistics
The difficulty was acceptable
Most of the questions we'd done in our tutorials
So overall, it was smooth!
No running out of time
No excessive time spent on the sum either
Hopefully it will be the same for the rest of my papers
Which are on next Wed and Thurs respectively

Looking at the days ahead
I still have more than 1 week time to prepare
to merge the gaps between me and the modules
I need to really study hard for my A's
Again, thanks to the new system....

Thanks to my lecturers
Dr. John & Ms. Ng
Who had given me reasonable marks for my courseworks
Which have further closed me with the As'
I really appreciate it

I wish my English paper mark would have been as high as that too
But It wasn't and it's a fact now already
I am not gonna beg her as to higher my mark
Or buy some gifts or chocs to her as returns
I wont do that and i am sure she won't take 'em
unless it is a present of appreciation..
She's too strict and serious
Wish she is aware of our hardness to get good grade.....
and willing to be more flexible in giving mark on our finals..

Nobody will help you if you don't help yourself!
At the same time, i promise that
I will do whatever i can to compensate the mark I've lost.

It has been burning hot recently
Hence activating people laziness or lethargy...
Making them not possible to concentrate thoroughly

Hey come on! It's exam week!
Spare us from that please!
It does make a tremendous difference!
Please...May God save us from that.....

Good bye my TEENS

2009-04-16T14:00:00.002+08:00

Say bye to my teens
I am twenty now
I should be more mature now
In all aspects

From thinkin to plannin
From plannin to doin
From adjustin to learnin
From learnin to gainin

All sorts of that
Got to do exactly like
What an adult does
Time to say bye
to my immaturity
to my insanity

my childishness
my silliness
my frivolousness
my madness

I hereby promise that
I will always be an ambitious guy
Always think and be sure bout

what I need and want
what have I achieved so far
what kind of person I am
(whether a guy with moral value or not)
what I expect to gain in future

and many many more.....
I will always devote my best shot
In order to succeed
No matter what
As long as It isn't my turn yet
to be called to serve
Or stay along with The God

It's 20-year-old promise of mine
I will endeavour to get a wonderful life
in my twentieth as further as how it can be

Before I am to say GOODBYE
Thanks for those, good friends of mine
Who had sent me their valuable and precious wishes
I am fortunate to have friends like you all
You are too sweet!

Thanks for the presents as well

- a boxer
- & a T-shirt
Special thanks to Chong, Rou, Ann & Wee

They are awesome! I really appreciate that!

My College life - DULL

2009-04-14T23:48:00.005+08:00

Scanning the days ahead, days that i gonna stay here, right in this college, right inside my room are not many. Occasionally, I have a thought going round and circle - surrounding my mind to have a clearer look on myself in this college, what have I done here during this prolonged period - about 2 years soon. It's kinda abundant and useful i would say so. Regarding what I'd experienced, lost, gained, learned, name it any words you can think of, I can't precisely tell here as it's all automatically applied. The one and only thing I am certain of is that, for years staying here, i've constructed or established a better confidence build-up through whatsoever I had gone through here. Another point for sure, I've known thousands of new friends here, and lucky I, almost all of them are good friends of mine, we do share and exchange thoughts of wide range like from college life to the working world, from getting married to nurturing our children and other stuffs like that to each other. Like I said before, honesty and sincerity are the keys to sustain our friendship, as simple as that! Never we buried a single hatred in face of each other.

To all my college friends,

Friendship Forever!

For guys, stay handsome always!
For ladies, stay gorgeous always!

Keep in touch!

Never-ending Workload

2009-04-12T12:15:00.003+08:00

Exam's just around the corner
Here is my schedule for these coming 3 weeks

16 Apr - Moral
17 Apr - Sejarah
20 Apr - Statistics
29 Apr - Communication
30 Apr - Biotech & Business Law

Dare not to imagine what I gonna get
for my result of this semester

I'm really APPRECIATE and THANK
The GENIUS, the creator of new grading system
Who had made such a tough time to us

You did it!
You really made it!

To stay us at the extremely high level
And to stay us in a terribly challenging environment
Giving an opportunity for us to strive
and many more

Sounds either motivational OR sarcastic?
You determine it!

3 more days to go....

2009-04-07T20:07:00.003+08:00

Everything was goin smooth yesterday
It was a short one
An interview with a simple Q & A session
It wasn't what I expected
Not for my colleagues either
Anyways, it did alleviate our worries
At least we know that
YES! We are hired!! Officially....
Since she said

' So, see you guys on 18th May! '

3 more days
2 more jobs
TO GO
and we will be free!!!
but just temporarily it'll be
perhaps 3 or 4 days
Cuz EXAM is just around the corner
Well, it's better than nothing, isn't it?

You guys know what?
I never have before-exam phobia before
But since only my semester 2
Not until I knew the exam format
Lecturers' marking style and scheme
During my first semester
But somehow, I'm feeling worried
about my exam this time
THANKS to the new grading system

SIGH...z...z...z..z...

No matter what, as usual, I'll try my best
If you believe you can, you can!
same goes to you guys
Everyone of you!

GOOD LUCK to me!
For a mock interview tomorrow
And a presentation on Friday...
Cheers!

MY DEAR>>>>

Goiin-to-be FREE MAN!

2009-04-03T19:44:00.003+08:00

1 more thesis-like assignment

2 more minor assignments

1 more survery report

1 more 15-minute presentation

1 more internship interview

1 more job-applyin interview

1 more AGM meeting

I'LL BE A FREE MAN.........

Apparently I am still alive! lolx.....

2009-03-31T14:59:00.003+08:00

I am not gonna say I'm busy anymore though I am because I'm already fed up with it by saying it out. Let's SAVE THE LAST PHRASE! I AM SO SO SO BUSYZZZZZZZ...... No worries, it's just the way I release my stress, lolx... Sorry I wanna say to those who happened to be the listeners. Note it please! It wasn't an excuse for sayin NO to you guys, but I really was in BUSY MODE.......

The most I feel sorry to was my buddies in my hometown. I was in NT last weekend which I am pretty certain nobody was notified of that as I deliberately kept it as a secret. There was a reason for that, a reason for everythin. I was shouldered up by tonnes and tonnes of homework that time which I couldn't even make it for a simple and short gathering which I knew it won't be as we all have got millions of stuffs to share especially they just got their results few weeks ago plus I am kinda talkative and distractive person, there won't be a-minute conversation between us I am very very very sure. So, FORGIVE me my friends, I know you guys are SWEET....

There will be a so-called 'interview' next Monday regarding with the internship. I think it will be more like a simple Q & A section, in other words a simple talk between us rather than a real interview. That was the reason I came back at that EXTREME period. I need a car to get to the place for interview which is not near from NILAI, it's in SHAH ALAM.

Things to be done are getting lesser now, but not all! That's why I still manage to grab some time to bullshit here, it's an one-second break for diggin GOLD! I think that's enough for this, better leave now for my assignmentzzzz.... There will be still a birthday celebration with my friends goin on tonight, really looking forward to it, hopefully i can give some shots later...

Happy belated birthday to WEE
& Happy predated birthday to NASIH
Shoo the badSSSSS &
Good luck for everythin ahead.....

Interference...

2009-03-24T22:42:00.002+08:00

I've been exhausted these few days..
especially last weekend..
Firstly, it was an inadequate sleeping hours
followed by the tremendous workloads recently
Couldn't imagine how am I gonna survive from that

But, like I always do,
I never fear of the challenges which come along
day by day, minute by minute
As I believe that we learn and grow up from them
I'm always waiting for gainin something from every single of them
So whatever dilemma I am in, I'll never stay in there long
Instead, I'll twist myself as hard as i could
to free myself....

I'm really not in good mood currently to share stuff here
Maybe nextime i'll expand it....

Las but not least
The only thing that comes across my mind recenly
is that, how to make myself better
from all aspects....academic, friendship, etc...
So don't you dare to get interfered with my thought and insistence!!!

Guess what? A stone is down!

2009-03-18T16:12:00.004+08:00

Whoa, it's fabulous!
I've got two things deleted in my list today one shot
after they had been jotted down for ages
Jealous right? lol

But still, there is a long way to go before steppin
on the edge of this semester
it is really an obvious Up and Down

Whatever it is, we need to look forward, go ahead...
Like I always say, it's life!
We can't predict what's gonna happen next
We always can't.....
Not a year, not a month, day till second
Could you predict what you gonna view or understand
in my blog right after 2 seconds from now on?

No?

Yeah, I expected that, we couldn't!

Just like me, I couldn't even be sure of
what I gonna write in this blog
right after 2 seconds from now

Perhaps....

That makes what life is
Full of surprises
Full of miracles
and so forth

Life is about adventure
like they say
We are always venturing for
what gonna happen next

It could be right...

It was a lightning stroke on me this morning
Making me to feel like....
I can't tell...
Weird? I would say that

I was like thinkin
Everyone has got an unusual expectation
on ME
my parents especially

See...I am not making shits up here
which I extraordinarily feel hatred on it
I always do
Instead it was so REAL
which couldn't even I make myself to believe

Maybe I should have been better than who am I now
Parents who believe in me,THANKS
It's the only spirit that has been boostin me up.....
Have fate....

Have been so compassionate recently!

2009-03-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

I wanna share everythin about HER here that come across my mind, or even a light flash, but i can't....

I had never expected she is a person of this kind, it's just unbelievable and surprised with whatever she did, she was absolutely outta her mind!!!

What to say? She had hidden herself, everythin about her - personality, trouble, friendship and so forth extraordinarily well which reminded me not to judge the book by its cover...

I am still wondering how she did that by knowin her reason I guess. It was just holy scary and terrible. She could have been a smart gal if she dint.....No 'IF' here, it already happened!

Just feeling sorry about her, if I could grab her sleeve last time, perhaps she won't fall into the deep black hole.. NO WAY!! unless I chased her and got her always by my side which is not possible to happen, not at all...

I know I've been kinda compassionate these few days.... but don't you think that it's just bad to see, friend of yours who supposed to have a bright shining future just perished away within seconds?

Love is Blind!!

2009-03-15T02:49:00.002+08:00

I would shout it loud!!!!
' Love is Blind '

I can't still accept the reality
But it did happen.....

What I realised???

% Discussion with family is important no matter what
% Love doesn't promise our future!
% Guys without resposibility are nuts!
% Gals should always conscious about what they do

It would be a lifetime lesson, wouldn't it??
But it was too massive for oneself......
I just can't imagine how
My dear friend gonna pay for it....

' God, The Greatest one! '

Forgive her, will You?
Everyone does mistakes...
And everybody deserves to be given chances

I feel her regret
Please give her a HAND.....

God Bless!

off with melancholia

Boredom....

2009-03-12T14:39:00.003+08:00

Just went back from a visit. It was not really interesting from what had been expected by us I believe and we absolutely gained little from it. But as what I've always been, things are just getting better if you try and look on the other side, which means in this case the positive aspect, life will be filled up by adventure and it wouldn't be so bored.

And,
What is boredom? I am confused with what I've been told, for me, we make the situation boring, not the situation makes us bored cuz we created the boring situation and we gotta face it. We could have made it fascinating on our own, say in a lecture, think of what the lecturer tells you, and you can find ways to understand it in amply interesting ways. It isn't neccessary to be a bored one, again it's all depending on you..

So,
Make you life interesting!

I love

2009-03-07T23:37:00.004+08:00

I love the God is watchin

I love my destiny He created

I love the way She treats me

I love my name it is called

I love the sun rises

I love my country I grow up

I love the place of mine

I love my Ms. Right-to-be

I love the way I entertain myself

I love my laptop pretty much

I love the songs I play

I love my family that loves me

I love the things I learnt

I love my shining personality

I love the mistakes I made

I love my bed I sleep

I love EVERYTHING I born with

I love EVERYTHING just to be myself

Can't even take a breath!!

2009-03-06T18:20:00.004+08:00

I was so busy recently

That I can't even

grab a chance to breathe longer

The stuffs are pushing me

into the deep scary hole

I'm gonna lost in black soon

So see ya

At a place of supreme bliss....

Can you define it? I just can't.....

2009-02-28T09:41:00.003+08:00

You think I am a tough person?
You are wrong!
We are wrong!
Cuz I used to be one, one of yours,
Insisting that me, myself is
As harsh as one might imagine
I could endure any hardship
anything that came across
the jar of my life timeline
that's the only guideline I lived with
The only principle I survived
I was always filled with confidence
to get something done as if the Creator

Yet,
I was wrong...
By having this mild state of
'talk-to-my-hand'
I've been hearing it long
Since i first got here
Perhaps, that's the 'breeze'
which any of penangites will own
No? Just confess! my friends...

Untill few days ago
I realized that I was nothing
Nothing than others
but a guy who is in pink of health
standing with 173++
laughing with 3 inches
nothing special then...

I am just weak
as if a new-born bird
Maximizin its jaw to food
Fed by its poor mother
I am nothing but just that....
I need you
Strength, i name it!

I am in collision currently
How about you, my dear?
Are you startin to wobble
Being not steadily well as before
I was hoping that I was the cause

I know we ain't gonna work it out
We could have similar line of strands
We both have visions to realize
We have different paths to plode
I seriously think we should stop

You and me together
Stop from where we started
Let's get back to the days before
When we were still
'hello-byebye' friend
to each other
Knowing you here
for almost 2 years
Though it has already happened
We got to fix it
Before it's getting worser

Lastly, God blessss you
Be happy always
Don't worry

Signin off in hoping for miracle......

MSMBB Quiz....

2009-02-23T21:11:00.007+08:00

Our team Nilai University College
visited north wing of UCSI, Cheras
for 3 days & 2 night...

' According to Patricia '
Our team wasn't the last one!
Round of applause for us......

& guess what
' According to Ms. Patricia '
We should go for celebration!

Panic or tense? Not at all...relax....

Whoa! We are tryin our best to get into semi-round

All the participants and organizing commitee

Looked smart! Goin for a presentation?

Nop! sorry...Not qualified to semi-round....

The closing ceremony....

It's over....

2009-02-22T16:03:00.003+08:00

Finally it's over...the quiz contest
It had ended up with a magnificent closin ceremony
I would say that, by not forgetin
Which I think all of participants do

One of the 'amazing' MC- MUTHU
With 'her' ( sorry for a known mistake here)
all sort of feminine movements, gestures

most importantly, the way 'she'
(again, a consciously made mistake here)
spoke to us, it was really ' impressive'!!
That made us to etch them on minds
Till the day we are buried to ground

Yet, indeed, 'she' is a talented mc
Which couldn't we deny it
So, my question here is that
Is a skillful speaker neccesarily to be a feminine one?
If I am tryin to point to a speaker who is a guy

No, not at all, from my perspective
I had gone through milions and millions of talks
(whoa....seems like I am a phD holder or sth
Not actually, just tryin to be exaggerative for seconds
Allow me please)

But, it is a fact that I ever met a guy
Who is an excellent speaker from a talk
He is deep and clear with his pronounciation
During his talk, and believe me
You will just like his voice
He is capable of welly managin his own way of emphasis
The talk was an eye-opener after all
I would never forget that and it was about sexuality

Alrite, talking bout the quiz
It was an eye-openin experience
With the presentation and all
And I do feel there is a gap between us somewhat
No choice but to admit it
And i will do whatever I can to fill the gap, hopefully

As I always do, I believe in myself
Safe and secure to say that
I haven't yet reached the exaggerative level
or else, it will be a 'severe' egotism

But it is very much true
i do believe in myself for everythin i've done
And I'll never look back
once I've chosen the pathway
As I will try my best to adapt,
Gain or to attain something from that

Why am i sayin this?
Promotin? me? myself? to who actually?
Unknown, to ghosts, perhaps
It's crap anyways

And just wanna say that
For the 3-day long quiz
Just take it as a helpful experience
To my dear teamates
I had got a lot fun time along the journey
So as you all I believe...

There is nothing much to lose remember guys!
But I was, seriously thinkin of how would it be
If we managed to get into semi-round
Nothing else but to torture my mind
By the way....

We would be exposed to the briefin firstly
And we got to complete the presentation
within 4 hours, it was goin to be tough I know
But i just believe that
We could, and we would come out with somethin
That must be sure I know

Perhaps, ours wont be as great as others
But at least, we tried and we had something to be shared
Those were the experience!
And the one and only thing we lost!

So,

Jessy - good luck for your comin inteviews,
I know they will come to you
And yeah, go after your chinese match!

Pat & V - plain sailing for everythin in FELDA
and keep in touch!
Hopefully we'll be goin Sunderland
together

See ya!!!!

What the hell is love? Relationship?

2009-02-21T20:07:00.003+08:00

It's 2 months to go to reach 20
But i have never thought I am a matured guy
In some particular aspects
Especially this one, relationship!
I bet it's a romantic stuff.....

As I was told by my friend
' Guys can never be friend of ladies '
He has got his point
Which is somehow happening to me
That makes me to ultimately understand it!

This is even precisely proven true when
' Singles of different gender meet together '
Like me and another....
Cuz they or we tend to get bonded to each other
Without any warning, without any reason
Is it true? Should I use we ?
Or just, it is sole?
' It works one way and one direction '

For my case, I think i am still alrite
That stuff is still under control and welly managed
Which makes me to survive until today

But not in the future, i dare not to promise that!
Relax!! It's just a joke
I won't be a monster like Mr. Sylar of that kind

I will need some feedbacks here if possible
Just wanna make sure I ain't the only one here
who is abnormal - should I say that?
By having this kind of thoughts
You tell me guys!

Ohh yeah!
I was thinking about friend of mine
Tellin me about her own way of seekin partner
Yesterday, along the journey to the Cheras

I was lookin out to the windows
Unable to capture everthing passed through me
outside of me of cuz
And i don't think i paid my whole attention
To what was happenin in the car
Especially the goin-on conversation
Just partially got to digest them
shameful to tell that

But as far as I can recall
I did reply to her
Which i can't remember what was it now

Like i said
I was just partially gettin connected to her
Forgive me, i know you will
If my dear friend, you, happens to pass by here

She was like so sure about her desire
To get a chinese as her boyfriend
Based on what she was sayin
Is it? Hopefully I am sending the correct message
For what she was tryin to tell that day

I am not doubtin her here
I understand the circumstances
And yes, I support her
Why not? Since Chinese are much better here
And believe it or not
An excellent example is just finished writin this line

There is already a prominent and irritated one
Here in my college
The Ms. Seremban who is a Chinese with
Her ~Malay or Indian~ unidentified boyfriend
Which have more than enough to light up
The fires of all guys in this college
Since in my opinion, that girl is like
One of the tops in this college
You know what I am sayin, I bet
Frustrated right?

Back to it, to put it in right
I would say that
' Difference in races absolutely not a obstacle '
For relationship stuff, and everything's destinied
' It's YES when only God said YES '

Good luck and all the best
To my friends who gonna find his or her one soon
Who gonna stay forever with his or her one now

Moving forward....

2009-02-18T16:10:00.002+08:00

Just finished my presentation for COM
It's an English class actually
We were the fourth group to present
Thanks to my pal, tek teng
I had myself welly dressed up today
I think....that made to rise up my confidence

I have been tryin to look forward
Endeavour to grab a greater view
A further one recently
Like where to go what to study & work
And so on...
Yeah, i admit it, i kinda in vex actually
But I somehow couldn't find the solution
Or I am lost in making decision
And ultimately, ended up by sweet dream
Perhaps, there are so many stones or rocks
that make their ways to block my path
From moving on.....Telling me that
I should get rid of them first!

Okay! Back to my actual life here and now
They are many more to go from now on
Math quiz will be held on tomorrow
A biotech quiz contest on Friday
If we do make it, we shall proceed
For the following stages, if that so happens
A malaysian study mid term on next tuesday
so on and so forth
Cant imagine that!

So what to say is....
Bear and fulfil it!
Good luck!

In Dilemma

2009-02-16T10:22:00.003+08:00

Why must we make choices for our lives?
Just hate that!!
I've been here for almost two years
and guess what, It's coming to end soon!
And that's time I gonna make choices
It's terrible!!!!

After discussion, I've got consensus
To go out there for my undergraduate degree
Really appreciate it and thanks to my parents

There are few options in my mind now
But they are more than enough to make me suffered!
It's either UK or Australia
Let's analyze and guys feel free to drop your words here!

Australia
* generally 2 years
* can apply for PR after my study
* nice environment
* higher-ranked (for u which I am goin)
* cheaper living expenses
* currency - 2.3
* I can work permanently there after gettin PR
* very close to Malaysia ( 7 hours of flight)
* looks more tranquil and peaceful

UK( Sunderland)
* 1 year only
* can work for 2 years after that
* can compensate the money spent within 1 year
* demand for biotechnology is higher
* GBP - 5.2( used to be 7.9)
* get more money ( if i am to be more economical)
* higher living expenses
* doesn't look so calm
* further

Guys! What You Gonna Say ???
Put Me In Right Please !!!

My Valentine

2009-02-15T11:23:00.005+08:00

A competition in the morning

Again, it was a pointless battle

Uhhh...forget about it!!!!

Like we always do, we stroke k box again!

We hung out in the afternoon
We? Yeah, we...

Group of my college's pals

It was just that

Nothing much

At least i wasn't dull and tedious

Prisoning in my room yesterday

It made even terrible

So note it!

French Soda with mixed favours!

Hopefully a better, a meaningful one

Will be going on next year!

You are mine!

2009-02-13T16:51:00.004+08:00

Get my new webcam!

And it's 39 only!

It's not so good, but that's more than enough for me!!

The very first picture i took

Re-gainin knowledge...

2009-02-11T21:25:00.003+08:00

It gonna be a quiz contest next week
Organized by? It's not important
Cuz i never think I got to remember that
It's gonna be held in Cheras, UCSI anyways

We, our college has sent a team for that
I am one of them
A shame for the team or the college
Haa.. both, I guess

I have been using these few days
To revise whatever I had learn here
From the given notes
Thanks God i still have them with me

Initially, when I first got the details
I was surprised as the contest
Is for degree level students,
Not for us, diploma students

There's an existence of distance or gap in between
Hence I was like totally brushing it aside
Never take it as one of my concern
That explains the reason
I started my revision so late

Until it was 2 days ago,
Back from the holiday
I flipped through some pages of the notes
Of my previously taken subjects

Something flashed through my mind
For that very moment
Telling me that we are actually not
So naive to work a way out

I see a chance there if all of us
could work a bit harder, put a bit effort
There is a path of light waiting there
Just at the side of the corner before the narrow space
Awaiting us to squeeze or twist ourselves
If we are ready to endeavour

So guys! Let's begin it!
Do a good job for our university before leavin it!

'Blank' like how I am now

2009-02-09T21:16:00.004+08:00

There gonna be tests of few subjects soon
They should be parts of my concern, shouldn't they?

But why?Seems that I don't feel anything of them
They are minor I know

But it doesn't mean we are tested for nothing
There are marks allocated

Each of them
Meaning it gonna contribute to my final

Yet, sadly to tell that So far I have no idea about the test

Entirely blank
That's it!

Wish me luck for the coming tests....
I know somebody gonna save me for that

There is always somebody
Next to me.....

I had forgotten how to spell 'L.O.V', is this correct?

2009-02-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

I had thrown it thousands miles behind
As far as I can remember
My nerves no longer hold it, feel it
No more like before?
Or, never I have it?
Shame on me, such a numb person I am!

Few things that I realize is that
I will still carve your name
Onto my notes, textbooks or even
Exam papers once
It's more than once sometime
And the funnier thing is
The process is automatic, unconcious
Again, shame on me
See what I've done!!

Is that I still have you in my mind
Should I congratulate you that
You had successfully stolen my time before
To etch yourself in my memory
To linger your shadow silhouetted
To stay your voice echoed

Maybe you are the longest
I feet in among those
No problem i think
I mean who cares
To live with a 'past' like that
Though it's neither sweet nor dim
That's it!
It does light up my curiosity frequently
How can it be?
Supposingly, it has already been eliminated
Cuz i am clear, very clear that
I am treating her as friend, plain one now
And I blacklisted her before
How can it be?
It's just unbelievable!

Anyways, not a big deal!
'Life is to move on'